Hope everyone is happy... Its good for you, Yes I mean that. I will get there eventually. When people see my heart and not just my facial extremities. Escaping a tormented mind is the first task. Shattered bones, a baby in the grave Life wants the last laugh. Being nice is in my Blood, I wish I could see the same. Wishful thinking is a thing of the past, cos wishes remain the same. I always think, that by helping the people around me be happy, I can then surround myself with the same people/thoughts. If I make someone upset by saying something stupid, It usually makes me feel worse, But how can folks go through life, totally ignorant of the folks they hurt or effect. I always rated my friends happiness as above mine, and surprisingly I do see it in return here and there. Being a single parent of 3 kids full time has given me some kind of focus, Between the kids and work I have basically nil social life. Always forgotten or left out. Or just plain old tired and need rest. Im a very loving person but from experience, not lovable. Im torn into about 20 different mind frames and counting. and frame by frame the pressure is mounting. People always say to put myself first, but that usually makes me feel worse, think thats my curse. We are all human, so why does that make some worth nothing. to be walked on and cheated on and treated like crap, When in reality, all you are doing is destroying a beautiful heart for the sake of the ugly greedy one in their chests. Where is sympathy and empathy, Giving a damn when something bad happens to a friend or stranger. Take it from a person who placed his Daughters, 2 foot pearl white coffin in the grave with my own hands. Take a step back and see what your heart has to be angry about, and how the person your taking it out on feels by thinking before you speak.
Posted on: Tue, 07 Oct 2014 07:42:43 +0000
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