How could this be...I thought things would be different this time but I guess I was wrong I guess Ive gained the true meaning of insanity Ive been trying to to do the same thing and every time Ive expected different results Im going to say something that only Cole Slizewski and Reed Bautista will understand Ive figured out why my blood runs cold when Im sad. And why I dont get cold Its because deep inside Im always cold just not accepting the truth well i was hoping to put this off till tomorrow so i could say my finale good byes to everyone but something Ive realized is that Im not afraid of death when Im gone Im hoping the world will be a better place I honestly dont deserve to live Ive had dreams of me killing people senselessly for no apparent reason besides of fear of that there going to hurt me like everyone else has rather you think you have or not Im a troubled person that cant take this thing called life anymore Im not sure if theres is a hell or heaven but one thing is for sure Im going to find out tonight theres other reasons besides bullying its because...things have been happening to me Im not sure what but for some reason my blood has been turning black and my scars turn black my sister has seen this and some people at school have seen my black blood Its hard to say but today is the end of me but first im going to say my final good byes Im sorry I love you dad but I cant stand this world anymore I know this is going to be to much for you sense your brother did the same thing your probably one of the only people who will care that Im gone I love you dad You will always be in my memories Mom I love you to you always understood when something was wrong when i was little but I feel as if weve grown apart for some reason i feel like were not mother and son anymore Nicole my sister I dont know how to say good bye to you cause when we were younger things were different we were closer that was before you changed but I know this will make you stronger as a person always keep your head up dont let my death keep you down Ill be watching over you if i can I love you big sis Jerry Clark yours is is one of the hardest goodbyes ill have to say youre my brother and my mentor you taught me alot like how to be a man and how to fight Im gonna miss you a lot big big bro I love you so much Some of the best times ive ever had it was with you remember jerry I love you stay twiztid bye Reed And Caleb Duke My two best friends I couldnt ask you to for anything more than what youve already done for me You guys were the best friends i could have ever asked for reed me and you have fought a couple time not physically but emotionally and angrily at each other and i want you to forgive myself i realize most of the times it was my fault and i thank you for never leaving my side and reed one more thing Dont go killing your self cause of me youve got a lot to live for you might not realize that now but you will sooner or later Bye bro Caleb you always cared when i looked sad or mad even though i wouldnt talk forgive me for that maybe thing wouldnt have been this way if i had but its a little late for me to start talking i realize that now And the person i trusted with my heart Lori Snow hmmm I love you lori i dont think i have to say much more than that besides me saying i want you to forgive me for not talking when you cared but Im going to miss you alot like a lot a lot Im gonna miss sending you stickers and then you saying you love me for you to randomly go out with some other guy the next day i could never tell if you meant it or not because when people say they love me i take that as a promise but theres someone whose broke that promise more than anyone and that person is you now my tore up heart will be free And to the rest of my family I love you and to all my friends that know who you are Im gonna miss you guys Well i guess this is good bye well time to find out where death leads Good bye everyone to my friends by the way let everyone here this message and mom and dad spend as little money as you can on my grave or if you choose to cremate me or not the last thing i want to be is a burden and if you do cremate me spread my ashes somewhere really cold and if you do put my body in a grave put on my tombstone Youre born dying bye everyone forever.
Posted on: Mon, 02 Dec 2013 04:25:27 +0000
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