I DID IT!!! Please use my story to know you can face your ailments and be strong! My name is Beth and I am facing my Greatest fear: going blind. Time to share Ive been legally blind without contacts and prescription not strong enough. Struggled with not being able to see more than 1 inch in front of me and a retina so thin it can disconnect at any moment-black, nothing. My severe myopia is caused my my eye itself to not place light into the back of my eyes creating distorted all blur view. Could not see who you were if you sat next to me on the couch. Anxiety, fear of not seeing where i am or who was right next to me or impact to head and our pretty world a blessing I wouldnt get to see. My kids wedding, grand kids , etc. All in my mind. Glasses not strong enough, and contacts started getting rejected by my eyes. Dictated my every day and took my enjoyment of breezes nature, outside away from me. Driving unnerving when contacts were moving daily when blinking-- while driving..making each blink a blind-see-blind-see every day. Doctor after doctor advised surgery is my required option. One in which with my heart condition, I would need to be awake and partially sedated for, but fully aware of it happening and seeing my eyes be cut. Yes, time for you to cringe!!! 2 years I researched this surgery and mentally prepared my mind to walk in and face the risks of this procedure. These were the days I wished Lasik was something that would help me: no. Please, who are reading this, look around you and take little moments to FEEL Blessed for being able to see whats right in front of you. When you are angry the dog had an accident on the carpet, be THANKFUL you can See it. When you are angry you are stuck in traffic, be THANKFUL to can see the steering wheel and cars in front of you, when you are stressed at work, be THANKFUL you can even see to GET to have a job. When you are frustrated at your house when others dont pick up, be THANKFUL you can see it to walk safely without tripping. When you are annoyed you can find your way somewhere and mad at GPS or your co-rider, be THANKFUL you can even see the street signs. Everyone gets so caught up in what upsets them, that they overlook that they are Blessed beyond belief with the most common yet profound things: sight, hearing, smelling, and touch. The last several weeks, i have been undergoing a lot of eye Iridotomies and surgical procedures to prep for the big surgery. Last Tuesday, I walked straight into the surgery center ridiculously scared yet determined to be as Im often called, LITTLE BUT MIGHTY. This year is my year of fear. Face whats holding me back and conquer it to overcome it, be stronger than it, and allow Gods strength in me to turn what knocks me down into the very steps that I will stand at the very top of victorious and stronger than ever thanking God for letting me me face it. I walked into surgery shaking, and wide awake, hooked up to heart monitors and my anesthesiologist not allowed to leave my side watching my heart condition and pressure, she sedated my body and strapped the legs so I would care to stop the surgery, but my mind fully awake awake and 100% aware of it, even watching it come to my my eyes. Yes, cringe again time!! This is not a laser procedure, but but full surgery. My temperature was 99. 5 and watching my orthostatic tachycardia, they talked me through everything, being so considerate to the fact I couldnt even see the very people doing all this to me or even the surgery room I for pushed into as I laid prepped in my bed . they told me what the room looked like and the ultimate action that put my worry of my retina detaching at ease, my surgeon put christian music on not knowing its the very thing that calms me and I heard strength in the words and knew I would be safe no matter if I was blind or not. My eyes now have implants INSIDE MY EYES that redirect light closer to the iris to reflect to the back of my eyes turning my distorted image into the way you all see!!!!!!!! Technology is PROFOUNDLY amazing! Im in recovery and am starting to see clearer now now with pressure and headaches as quote my surgeon my fucus points are learning to see with my new eyes. NUTS!!!! I will need cataract surgery anytime between now and Im 50 and regular testing will determine when, my retina is still thin so this doesnt stop my threat of it severing and I am candidate for early eye cell loss, and have some swelling glares to lights, adjustments to many things, and its not the end to my surgeries, but as as for today, I WAS BLIND AND NOW I SEE!!! His AMAZING GRACE makes me, lil Beth, little but MIGHTY!!!
Posted on: Fri, 29 Aug 2014 14:14:09 +0000
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