I DON’T CARE IF YOU READ THIS OR NOT BUT I HAD TO VENT AND THIS IS MY WAY OF SHOUTING IT OUT AS MANY PEOPLE AS I CAN AT ONE TIME!! I JUST CRIED SO HARD FOR A FEW MINUTES AND NOW I AM MUCH BETTER. THANK YOU LORD FOR HELPING ME. PLEASE EXCUSE TYPOS.. I AM VENTING!!! I got a message last night that a friend from long ago died. It still amazes me how the news touched me so deep and I had not seen him in several years. Last time I hired him to do the video for my cousins birthday and I have to say he was Excellent! Here I am in Charis Bible College mainly because I had a hard time dealing with death. This ”Cancer” diagnosis that ran through a group of my friend like a tornado back in 2010-2011 ending with my Dad Edward Bratton horrible death triggered a change in me. Although many people have been diagnosed after that. It was after my dad died that I decided to leave New Jersey heading to Colorado at the leading of God to learn HIS perspective on life and death. Right before I learned of my Dad being ill I was dealing with grief of several friends untimely and painful deaths so I was on the brink of mentally loosing it then I became a caregiver to my Dad with my Grandmother. Several months before my Dad received the bad news I went to God in a disillusioned state of intense grief not expecting an answer since I never knew to speak to God like this and he spoke back to me when I asked,” Am I gonna die of Cancer or of any disease or am I gonna die broke like I am now after being severally wounded by the Real estate market crashing since I was a Realtor/ Investor and the voice said? , “ No there is more” And I instinctively knew to began reading the bible which turned into 12-16 hr days of intense study from the bible to Christian TV, church, bible study, cds, dvds, conferences and conversations on the topic. I turned into a fanatic. It was like I was on auto pilot. Taking in all that I could learn about death, sickness and disease, prosperity and what Salvation is all about. I learned so much about how much God loves us and that sickness and disease is not from God and Father God is not teaching us something by it. He does not want us to go to heaven sooner than we need to because we all have assignments right here on earth to do what God has planned for us. Jeremiah 29: 11 tells us that God has a very good plan for our lives. So learning of Davids untimely death triggered so much emotion like anger, sadness, grief and frustration. Especially after scrolling through his Facebook page and reading his posts and seeing his pictures. He was living in a great time period for him. Looking great, feeling great and inspiring others. Your death is not in vain. You brought me back to why I was in Charis Bible College and that is to learn about death. Yes we are all gonna die. But does it have to be young, in pain, tragically and untimely? The answer is, “NO” and I will prove it from a biblical perspective. As I prepare for my 1st funeral next week as an assignment for Charis Bible College I will remember you with Joy David Sampson. I believe you are in heaven with Jesus and my Dad and other beloved family and friends of yours and mine. We will meet again when I have completed my assignment here on Earth. You are gone but not forgotten. I AM PRAYING FOR PEACE AND GODS OVERWHELMING LOVE TO OVERTAKE DAVIDS FAMILY AT THIS TIME IN JESUS NAME!!
Posted on: Sat, 05 Apr 2014 13:19:23 +0000
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