I HAVE LOOKED GOOD ENOUGH ~ Lately I have been realizing something very unusual about me. I do not know if that happens to each one of us who swings in their dreams day in and day out. I must admit I was clinically workaholic. Clinically mad about my work. When I began on this unknown path yet the most closest path of serving.. which truly I believe was my need to serve I had no idea, recognition would come as a part of it. I had no idea that seva was something that felt like an alien dream to be achieved by many. I didnt know that I would be appreciated just because I was doing seva. It surprised me to believe; that which is so much a humane nature in us was felt distant by many. Recognition was very tasty. But just to my mind buds. My heart buds kept me focused on my sole of foot that felt the burn of rays and at the same time held me around like a rope to keep moving ahead. Indeed fame was very luring and soon the mind bud turned into a flower. I enjoyed every eye on me. I enjoyed every hand that wanted to hold my hand and join the journey. I fell for the fragrance of beautiful words said by the world. I soon started to believe in the roots set by the mind flower and allowed the wind to play through the petals. (In no way I am disrespecting all who believes in Touching Lives and really appreaciates the work. This is about me; just the raw me. )But sooner I realised it was perhaps just a flower and soon this flower would die as per its nature. The petals would fall off. And so they did one day. And when they did, it was no other than my children who I saw were holding the buds of my heart. They ignited me again with my urge and my own need to be loving. I must say it was hard to get back on the path but needless to say, the children by then had already began their own journeys and were holding that beautiful garden in their hearts to believe in myself ones again. Today I am certainly thankful for every respect and every recognition and every bit of thorns that scratched my soul... it was certainly that blood within that showed me how I will and my need will always be to serve. I may diverge, I may walk on footpath of mind for sometime, but I truly trust that my soul would be someone who will always be there to give me a drop back home. I am home today! Sonia ~
Posted on: Tue, 21 Oct 2014 16:14:43 +0000
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