I am Victorious because My God ❤ Loves me and appointed me as His voice and vessel of truth. Satan tried to test me as he did with Job...and God said He could but God encouraged me through messengers that came to me and gave me a message of encouragement. This video was one such message that God Answered my prayers during a 40 day fast and intercession for my Country and abused women and children. God visited a colleague a 12 days prior to this message and said God will answer me in 11 days. The colleague came to my office the next morning to bring me the message that God has a Answer for me and will send me more instructions during the coming days about the time and place. Gods Promises for me in my life was what kept me going and knowing He Trust me to Glorify His Name. I am sharing this message to encourage you to stand strong fitted with Gods Armor of faith as in Eph 6: 10-20. By reading a short version of my testimony you will have a opportunity to walk a short mile in my shoes and also realize that the road I gave travelled was full of potholes, dark, lonely and scary... but His word was a Lamp unto my feet and a Light on my path. There were days that I didnt know where my kids food for the day will come from...no fuel in the tank to get to my next potential client, no fixed income, no airtime to use my cellphone...no emotional or financial support from hubby ir in law family and my own Mother the year prior to loosing my business...my sister who were a partner in the business moved away and brother didnt know how to support without me asking fir help. I Lost a very successful business and all my assets in SA due to a corrupt Government organisation in SA, that stopped paying suppliers who did not have Black business partners and my corporate clothing company was one of many who did not receive payment for goods already delivered. This was the start of BBE implementation and new Legislations in 1997 in SA. I am talking about more than R1000 000.00 outstanding and sudden none payment to my company! I had more than enough reasons to think God abandoned me or forgot about me. But one day after trying to find answers why God allowed the unrighteousness and suffering in my business whist He promised me in the Garden that I will be successful in life and will live out my dreams and even told me I will make beautiful dresses. Little did I knew then at the age of 9 that i will become a fashion designer and also one of South Africas largest Corporate clothing manufacturers at the time. I always honoured and gave Glory to the Lord testifying whenever the spirit prompted me to give testimony of Gods miracle healings of my tongue and ears. I could not understand why God allowed the mayor loss of my business whilst I was trading in righteousness and integrity and even feeding His people...giving to the poor, disabled and abused? I wanted to know Why Why Lord and I struggling with the Lord. I was ready to take my own life for feeling abandoned, rejected and betrayed by God for not honouring His promise that He made to me. I thought, well yes God did honor His promise to me but took it away after 10 years in the trade and me being only 30 at the time. I will never forget that day, 12 March 2000 at 3pm the afternoon.... I was crying all day..refusing to go out my room after taking kids to school. Planned to rake my life that day uf God dont answer me. As I sat ready with the loaded 9 mil revolver after praying all day! Climbing back into the cupboard ad I did when I was a child to go to the Garden and even searching for scriptures! But they were all dead and God was silent...nit giving me access to the Garden! It fealt if my heart was going to tear apart! Sitting with the revolver against my head I heard the pages of my Bible paging .... The bible was laying open on my bed and I was sitting in the floor next to the bed. I wad shocked and immediately look at the bible....when it stopped I went closer to see where it stopped. I realized it was the Holy Spirit who came and turned the pages of my Bible! It was open at Isaiah 54 and verse 5 was standing out in bold letters... The scripture declared that God is my husband and did not forget me.. I cant explain the relieve and joy that filled ever cell if my body! If you read the scripture you will also notice that God mention that He was angry at me and rejected me for a little while He is taking me back in His great Mercy. I could not understand why He was angry at me and what could I could have done that angered Him but as I sat crying, this time with gratitude for His Mercy I still kept on asking Him what did I do that angered Him. I saw Isaiah 45 in my spiritual eyes while sitting with closed eyes and immediately start reading it. Although the scripture was and remains very promising it is a very Serious Word about who God is and how He wish to be honoured. The Holy Spirit convicted me and reminded me of the Princess Diana Project that I started in 1998 for a charitable fundraising initiative to support abused women and children and those living with disabilities. Well it might sound very noble and great but Nothing is noble or great if Gods honour or word is contradicted. The campaign was all about Diana and her good works,motivating women in South Africa to follow in her footsteps to take on charity projects and provide for those less fortunate in SA. Well the reality of what I did to give honour to a human instead of God was not easy to face or process. I fealt like a traitor! I was so disgusted with myself knowing that I promised Jesus in the garden that I will never betray Him, that I will be His friend and never do as his other friends did who left Him and walk away! I forgot my promise and forgot His word. I could hardly function properly for view weeks until one night the dreams were back! God communicated with me in dreams since childhood but it disappeared while I was busy with the Diana Project . But it didnt bother much because I thought God must have been happy with me for what I am doing but I forgot to measure my actions with His word as He told me to always do. Little did I realize I took a human and made a idol of her! Giving her the Glory that actually belongs to God! Although I understood my mistake and did repent, I wanted to know why did God allow me to proceed without warning me. That was when I had the dream and saw Luke 22: 31. After reading the scripture it made so much sense to me why God allowed this horrific mistake in my life. I realized that Satan asked God to test me as he tested Job. So the fight is not against me but between God and Satan and I am the instrument. Satan knew I was born to bring God Glory on earth thats why He tried to kill me while i was still in my mothers womb. God said to Satan that I will never betray Him and Satan said: Well lets see! Luke22:31 Knowing that the war began in 1999...I started loading my arsenal with Gods word and positioning myself daily for the battlefield armored with the full armor if faith as in Eph 6:10-20. Knowing that God has to grant Satan the right to test me gave me courage to stand up and fight back with all the strength I could find in Christ and with Gods word as my Sword...Whatever I needed in or out of my life, I spoke it into existence in faith as God taught me in the Garden. But Not without some very low and weak moments when all my strength were gone and when Satan start attacking my health and emotions through depression with nobody to pick me up. Satan had strategised to take away my support system before my fall, by also removing my mother through death one year prior to the business tragedy. My husband turned his back on me and ignored me withholding emotional and physical comfort from me. But God always provided a helping hand of a friend or stranger on my path at the right time to lift my spirit and give me courage to persevere going forward in faith. I could have hated the New Government and stop giving to the previously disadvantaged Africans in SA, but I faught with Gods word and Love against all odds. I just kept on giving His Love without receiving it back at that time, but knew my investment is not on earth but in Heaven and my fight was not against flesh and blood in this world but evil principalities using empty vessels to get to me down, to use and abuse me..but God gave me wisdom and spiritual discernment to highjack the enemies strategy. No easy war! I have promised Satan that I will unmask him and will reign forever with Christ for all eternity and thats exactly what I will do as I have been Victorious for the sake of Christ Alone! I am not concerned what people think or say about me.... I live for the honour and Glory of Christ and He awarded me victory crown to reign and govern with Him on earth as in heaven. To take care of His sheep and teach them His way according to His word....implemented in action with Spirit and Love.❤ His Kingdom will reign Forever in Heaven and on earth. Rev10:7 has come into fulfillment! Amen
Posted on: Tue, 02 Dec 2014 05:11:27 +0000
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