I am about tired of hiding my true feelings and pain everbody knows all I ask for is prayers and im going to say it im scared for my lungs are getting worse.The doctors in Ashville told me when I come out of the coma and was in cicu that I would live maby 2 years and that was 2006 but the Lord has let me come this far and now they told me they have gone as far as they can go just keep me comfortable with narcotic medication. Now thats the real me. I am still going on and not let my worry and pain show im keeping showing care and love to the ones I meet and keep a front to my friends. I guess what brought this on is I met a girl at mission and she was from Dallas Texas we had a great friendship we emailed and texted every day but one day we got into a heated argument and she deleted and blocked me. Last week I got an email in her name saying it was her mom that nikki had been killed in a car wreck in that blizzard they had well yeah it tore me all to pieces I didnt know what to do aand only talked to my daughter Crysyal about it..NOW yesterday I got a yahoo im from her all she said was hey ha ha and wont answer me on nothing so I quit trying. Nobody should not do anybody like that out of hate. Im also going to tell my friends and I love all of you on here. My family already knows it I have got a lot more wrong with me that anyone knows but sometimes I get depressed like I am now that I dont care about people knowing the real me that I know im slowly dieing and get scared.I have seen a lot of death in vietnam and all the time I was there I was scared of dieing 24/7 but I know this is coming but I dont want anybody to pity or feel sorry for me I just want to go on like I am and my friends to care for and love me and ones I truely love dont send a fake of getting killed then laugh about it. Well ive run my mouth enough so God love and bless all of you and keep your prayers for me I love you all..
Posted on: Sun, 09 Mar 2014 02:47:00 +0000
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