I am at a point where my negative thinking patterns are extremely apparent. For whatever reason, living on this island has brought many things to a head for me. Awareness is a big step in healing bad habits, but I am in a very uncomfortable and somewhat frightening stage where I know I am negatively and unnecessarily affecting my well being with my thoughts, but am so ingrained with the gloom and doom that it feels impossible shifting my attitude. Like trying to loosen a bolt that has been rusted shut for ages. I have trained myself over many years to assume something awful is always about to happen, so as not to be let down when it does. A defensive mechanism I guess. I have been trying my darndest to shift my perception, but the danged thing wont budge. I feel like a deer in headlights most of the time. On edge and ever ready for the sky to fall. I can achieve some sort of peace for a few moments here and there, but holding onto that state of mind feels like trying to grasp a whisp of smoke. Any who, Im a super sensitive soul trying not to lose it. Any advice on achieving and maintaining a sense of peace and positivity, considering the presence of anxiety and depression, would be awesome
Posted on: Thu, 30 Oct 2014 21:21:53 +0000