I am compelled to share the words of another addict. I have been floored by the network that this calling - that I seem to not be able to shed ... has taken me. FB, as odd and discouraging as it can be at times, has opened a communication avenue that I would have never imagined. On a night before Christmas ... I was speaking to 12 addicts at one time ... across the US - a number of which were ready to give up on life. I ask that you read the below post from a young man ... About one month ago, i was caught burglarizing a pharmacy. When i realized there was no way out, i swallowed 3 mouthfuls of a mixture of benzodiazepines and morphine, on top of the heroin i had used previously to committing the crime. Despite treatment, support, love, care, education, recovery plans, meds, doctors, etc. I still find myself wanting to die by means of an opiate overdose. Already suffering from depression prior to the first time i used heroin, it wasnt long or hard for the drug to take its place as to be by its hand that i shall die. After my 3rd and latest suicide attempt, i feel its only a matter of time until my 4th will ultimately be my last. Ive come to terms with it. Its won. To whomever may read this, whether its before your 1st time or your 10,000 time, get out before it takes over your mind and convinces you of the same. The longer that I walk through the heaping piles of pills, powders, buds, needles, rolling papers, pipes and rolled up dollar bills ... the more convinced of 2 main drug strategies - both stand out in this young mans post. 1) Prevention - this young man, though he is already planning his suicide, finds himself reaching out to try to help another with get out before it takes over your mind. The part that 20 years in this world has taught me - you never know which party will be the last one before addiction overtakes you. I am convinced that mine began on the first hit. 2) Did you notice ... in his list of treatments or tries ... what was left out. We live in a time and in a world that considers God not cool or going to God is not intellectual or progressive. This is both the cause of where we are and the absence of self worth that is hidden within every addict. My young friends - this old man has to beg you one more time - dont ever go to it or allow it in. If you are dabbling in any of it - walk away now. To the many addicts of this world - your list of treatment and tries will continue to grow and the emptiness will continue to magnify - until you give yourself completely unto the God that created you. You will never experience true healing without Him. I heard of 2 overdoses in HC yesterday. This young man may end his life with his 4th attempt today. But, there is a choice ...
Posted on: Tue, 30 Dec 2014 14:17:14 +0000