I am glad I am seeing a counselor next Tuesday. I feel like the whole world is working against me, a paranoia that is consuming me. I cant seem to break this habit. I feel there is some force trying to bully me into conformity, an insecurity that is preying on my ability to be who I truly am. This paranoia is attacking my passion to see through my unique lens through the Niggi version lens and criticizing it. I dont want to change for anyone, but why am I so afraid of what the world thinks? Am I afraid to face the world? I shouldnt be. What is this? Is it my OCD? Why do I care so much about how others see the world without the Niggi version? Why cant I just be Lisa and see life through my own lens and the Niggiverse and enjoy the Niggi version. It makes me so happy. I dont understand. It pisses me off, because Im trying so hard to not give a shit but every attempt gets destroyed after. I love who I am, I do not want to change and be boring. I need a hug. I feel like crying.
Posted on: Thu, 07 Aug 2014 17:14:36 +0000
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