I am thankful for the patience and love that so many of you have shown me as Ive worked through my grieving process the last few months. Ive been less than Ive come to expect of myself, and would be ashamed of myself under normal circumstances. As is, Im just glad to be still standing and in any state other than free fall, I appreciate the leeway you all have given me, and promise Im on my way back. I am thankful for the mirror that this ordeal has turned on me, and the silver lining of self-awareness that has accompanied it. I am thankful that cigarette prices have damn near doubled since September 7, 2007. I m thankful that I still get to see my buddy Michael Cole at work everyday a couple lifetimes since that day, when he handled my shit for me. I am thankful that I am aware that my lack of subscription to any particular capitalist faith system does not preclude the hope for a persistence of the human spirit beyond my own perception, thereby allowing me to feel like my little girl is out there somewhere, existing and maybe even flourishing. I am so DAMN thankful for the little girl who is still here, has owned her honorary uncles heart since he first held her in 2005, and who I have the great privilege of calling my goddaughter. I am thankful that she and I exist in a day and age when the 701 miles between us can be mitigated by iMessaging, Facetime, and Southwest Airlines. I am thankful for a job where I can work 30 hours of overtime in four days, get my regular forty hours, and then still have three days off for Thanksgiving (clearly I needed them, as I am posting this on day #3). I am thankful for the 437 benefit, which turned my life around when I thought it was too late. I am thankful that my brother JP Landi took up roller hockey and got me back into it after 11 years. The time spent with my brothers and the friends Ive made in that time has been priceless. I love you all. I am thankful that my two favorite bands didnt pack it in after the death of their bassists and the firing of their drummers, because seeing Soul Asylum and Slipknot live have been highlights of this audiophiles life. I am thankful that thirteen years after she introduced me to them I got to experience the latter with Amanda Jones, and Im thankful that as different as weve grown, and in spite of years apart once or twice, we still have that bond. EDIT: omfg Amanda I am thankful you texted me to let me know Kat Dennings was on Craig Ferguson. I am thankful that I grew up with her and the brothers in the BCC, and that on Thanksgiving and Black Friday I still hear from Maxx Pavao and Keith Northover. I am thankful for the trajectory that Uncle Mike sneaking me out to his Camaro when I was three years old and playing heavy metal for me set my life on. This is my earliest memory. Back to the first point on this list, special thanks to my parents. No words could do my appreciation justice. I am thankful I lived to see the return of Surge. I am thankful for Stephanie. Wherever were headed and whatever mistakes we made. Im better now than I was before you love. Ask anyone. And Im thankful that youve been helping me drink the Surge, because thats too many carbos for any one person. Also thankful you made me get a cat, because Sibbie is my BFF. I am thankful for 24 hour gyms, because thats where my fat ass is headed as soon as I post this. Related, I am thankful for Thanksgiving beer and pie. I am thankful for my whole family, even Kate. I am thankful that the guy shes marrying seems cool. And if you read this whole thing, I am thankful for you. Im a terribly difficult person to get along with, and I appreciate those who go to the trouble.
Posted on: Sat, 29 Nov 2014 06:37:49 +0000
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