I am torn between a desire to enjoy the world and a desire to transform it. Today I spent most of the day in prayer and quiet contemplation about my passions and my purpose, I asked people for words of insight, anything I could think of. I thought of all my prophetic words especially those that fueled me the most. I am left with the thought that thinking we have to chase after something, is unbelief that God wont bring it to us. He says seek after my Kingdom and all these things should be added to you. Where is the Kingdom? Inside of us! And as we tap into the Kingdom in us we naturally bring it forth around us. Yes, I believe my destiny is to change the world around me, but I can not help but believe that it will come not from a great work ethic (even though thats apart of it) nor from the best strategies, but from knowing Gods goodness and kindness in my life in all I do. Not from chasing purpose and destiny, but from chasing God. My passion is God. He fuels me and I can not separate my passion from Him. My purpose is to be loved by Him and love all those He brings near me. And I can not separate my purpose from His love for me. I will not chase after things, I will not chase after action I could be doing. There is a lot of things I can be doing. All I have to do is look around. But, I believe action for its own sake should not be sought like Martha, but we should choose the better things like Mary. I could be wrong, but I am going to handle the things God puts in front of me. I will be a good steward with the small and I will only accept more if it is given to me, not if I have to chase after it. My running shoes belong only to running after Love Himself. Jesus didnt seek a ministry, He was one. He walked and loved. He did what He saw His Father doing. He was effective not busy. He didnt have a bunch of to-do lists. He didnt try to make a Name of Himself. He simply loved and followed His Father Whos heart was for the people that were in His proximity. Right now, I believe that at the end of my life my Father will not ask me what did you DO, but did you love well? And I think loving well is a worthy enough goal on its own. And where ever that may take me so be it, but if Im going to go anywhere its going to be following after Him. I am sharing this in the hopes it might bless someone else. Bless you!
Posted on: Mon, 31 Mar 2014 02:09:57 +0000