I asked my father to watch my daughter for twenty minutes (last night). Boy, I needed to get out and away.. Some moments to myself. But of course instead of walking.... I practiced performance. In practicing this... It includes sharp turns to spinning on one tippy toed foot to then vogue a bit (while solely balancing on one pointed toed foot) (slightly) all the while keeping control of my abdominals to land sharply with my right leg extended and left leg bent ..to then bending backwards at times like Ciara. To top it with some junglistic fever model walk. When you cant help yourself and all your body wants to do is create an entire world. ..you dont feel normal... Or even welcome. But when the car horn honks and you then notice -oh.. They caught that move right quick. That shit was nice. Thank you for acknowledging and slowing your car down a bit to enjoy the view.. You make me feel wanted in some way. In this cold ass world .. You get tired of holding back and Ive been backed up.. My anger has awaken itself just because of that. So imagine the beast that holding yourself back creates-- you become impatient and begin to start saying- Ive been worried about making some people uncomfortable in my life. And you know what... Ahh man... I cant keep worrying about losing you just because I know Im about to intimidate you. I throw my entire being on you.. If I decide to practice in front of you. Which .. Shit. Thats never happened. I seriously act like I dont know what to do when it comes to my vocals or even dancing (around my loved ones). My resolution? To finalize this. To get myself an entire team once again for Soulísa .. If I had that once before... God is good enough to bring all that back into the picture. Ahh.. Im just being real now :/ #Forgiveme ..Were all just little ants on this planet trying to succeed at what Raw Talent God gave us.. Its all good #love
Posted on: Sat, 03 Jan 2015 01:55:54 +0000