I came home to Varna yesterday after a time of emotional healing in Italy and Slovenia. It was bitterly cold, temperatures in the 3 to 5 degrees Celsius range but it was the cold inside that freezes your soul that concerned me. You see, I work with mentally ill people all the time, people with clinical depression, schizophrenia, bipolar disorders and more. Its become so normal for me to see them mask their pain just to be able to function. The hardest to help are those dealing with spouses who are emotionally unavailable because they are having a more satisfying emotional relationship with someone outside of the union. Oh I wish I could scoop these guys up and hug them because there is not much else to do but to go through it. They are the proverbial sad sacks who are holding the egg-shells while someone else is eating their Omelette. So is there a way forward for all these lonely folks who need to find happiness? Yes, the book I am finishing this week, Anything is Possible. I thought long and hard and as I slept in my own bed last night, alone and shivering with the cold. It suddenly occurred to me that my Motivation to finish this book had nothing to do with my expertise in Psychotherapy but more with my own experiences, inner rage and loneliness as all my life I ploughed through one empty relationship then another then another, seeking out people who had one emotional deficiency or another. And when I am done with these folks or vice versa, they are all the better for having had me in that union. Funny that I never saw that before. I was Don Quixote and my reward from each encounter were eggshells! You cant help but develop a deep sense of humor after all of that! I spent almost all of last night tossing and turning and it was so cold that I did not feel like getting out from under the covers to turn the heaters on. All the while, my mind reeled through the years and the millions I have spoken to and whose lives I had impacted and I asked myself if I was making any permanent difference at all for these good folks or if I was just a temporary salve. Then I realized the importance of the books that I am writing and how these step-by-step manuals could really touch more lives than I am physically able to have a personal relationship with and I was determined to finish them. As I looked out my cold bedroom window, the first light of Dawn hit the clouds in a magnificent display of orange fury and I realized that I had not slept much so I got up and in my hands were eggshells. ❤️
Posted on: Thu, 30 Oct 2014 05:40:56 +0000
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