I can honestly say this past week has been the hardest time of my life other than when my daddy died. I didnt realize a human could endure so much physical pain and on top of that unexpected emotional pain. Iv seen who truly loves and cares for me. Im crying as I write this. My heart just hurts. I want my normal back. For some that have texted I may not have remembered but Im thankful you took the time out to check on me. And my unexpected visitors. Just thank you. Truly. I try and just love everyone. I enjoy being a good friend and Im grateful for the kindness returned to me these past 8 days. I miss my boys. Thats a pain you cant describe. So grateful Scott brought them to spend time with me tonight. Lots of time to reflect which maybe the reason Im going thru this. I know God doesnt give you more than you can handle. So Im thanking God for everything he has done and everything he has in store for me. If you have a moment I ask for your prayers for me tonight and tomorrow as I go into my 3rd unexpected painful surgery. My bp is very low so I ask it rises. Im full of IV bruises from head to toe. Hope one stays good for tomorrow. Also ready for a clear mind. The pain pump keeps me crying,worrying about everything and everyone,making me 2nd guess myself. So much. Music even makes me cry tearless tears. The weightloss is staggering now. Ready to steady out. Sorry for being so wordy. I cant speak it but I can write it. I wrote this here so if I forget it will be here tomorrow to remind me of my battles this past week and remind me that Jesus has this. I love you all. Xo Tammy
Posted on: Thu, 25 Sep 2014 02:20:27 +0000
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