I changed my profile pic once again, every time I change it photo it has significant meaning. This photo was taken yesterday ( a selfy) I had to take it because after 23 years I finally have complete peace of my moms death, even though she died young she led a full exciting life and has left me proof in a wooden box with a journal, most of it made me blush to read it, also were concert tickets, a flying aircraft certification recording book of the miles she flew, the trips she took. she lived poor and rich and made the best of everything. She dated some amazing men when she was single but her second marriage was her Prince Ed Shaw. He was an amazing man and step dad that I called dad. There is another journal about my father, I never read it until yesterday, and I never wanted to read it afraid it would be about the bad times but on the last page she wrote ‘When did they start calling tragic love affairs dysfunctional? my marriage was tragic in a way that we loved, lust each other so much but we could not live together, Im so happy I have experienced that kind of torrid romance, the feeling when you kiss you head spins, and always being surprised. I love my second husband very much but in a much different way, a good love, he is my best friend and lover, my partner. How lucky I am. So anyways reading this about my mother and father and how much they loved one another was news to me as they divorced when I was 3... Anyways I finally feel peace after all these years feeling she was cheated out of life . My mother lived a wonderful life, she made her life wonderful and she made it clear she expects the same of me. So to make this longer, I wore a skirt she made me with her favorite scarf and necklace yesterday to celebrate a freedom, a peace of mind after 23 years. Please keep a journal for you kids. My mother’s journal lifted so much pain. Anyways that is what this profile pic is about. Oh and I look like my mom and have her attitude, I hear her come out of my mouth as I grow older, so strange.
Posted on: Sat, 25 Oct 2014 10:20:48 +0000
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