I decided not to talk her for unknown time. everything was fine till morning but then things started to messed up. I was just checking my cell again & again in hope of her single message. I just passed whole day by looking towards the last texts of her! what I were searching was my fault! my brain was not ready to accept the mistake & my heart was just in search for her. its quite awkward moment because I was not able to decide to whom I should listen . my hands were typing a text for her but my brain was just forcing not to send a single message so I didnt send a single text. I just thought that I would wait for her if she really needs to talk then she will for sure! my heart was saying just think once if she also have thought like you did then but my brain replied to it - then we both will not talk for unknown time even we have to suffer with pain for this! we will just handle it but we are not going to talk! yes its true ego started to take place in the love I thought I should not be egoistic but mind was not ready to listen me. it just ordered to leave her. Heart asked why I should leave her ? why I should do this to one whom I love so much ? Mind replied simply - because she doesnt need you anymore! you can see her behavior to you! has she ever tried to know your problems or was she there with you when you needed her the most? or has she ever talked you like she used to talk her friends? yes she was there but only sometimes! yes she talked me the same way but always when there was no one to talk her. she never remembered me! my brain was trying to make me completely mad but my heart was ready to fight against tactics of mind ! My heart said - you should not listen to your brain because it always talks only logical thing it never understand the feelings! the problem is that you are just jealous thats why all these bad things are coming in your mind and your brain is just taking advantage of it and is forcing you to get away from her. I know sometimes in love jealousy takes place but you should not be jealous because after her mom dad she loves you the most in this world! yeah she cant spend whole day with you! she has to look after her friends too , she is busy in her life but still she is making time so she can spend that with you & dont you think everyone has their rights to live their life in own way? so its better dont think about the bad thoughts coming in your mind! dont forget you love her so much so please get the jealousy out of your mind my mind was just shocked and he didnt have any thing left to oppose the heart and he surrendered himself to heart I was feeling better and so loved after whatever had happened! love was ready to make me feel so loved again with no jealousy and ego left on me the problem was just my ego and jealousy that led me to the battle but still I was not ready?even after the surrendering my brain was still trying his best to stop me & he was 50% successful I didnt know what I should do except waiting or opposing the brain but I hoped she will help me & All I decided was to wait for her . & I knew she will come for sure but again everything started messing with each other & I just thought to leave Her! I didnt want to do so but I was just under control. leaving her might be good for for her! I never thought a mind could be so dangerous it doesnt let person to do anything and it was disturbing me and yes it got success and left me hopeless.
Posted on: Sun, 24 Aug 2014 07:10:43 +0000
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