I do not know if there is anyone in this world living my strange case or not, but one day I was normal person who like to have house, family, work and good future. Since I was 17 years old, I was searching for the true love and I started communicating with girls assuming that through increasing relations I can find the proper girl who will share me the rest of my life. I do not remember how many shocks I got or how many I gave, only I remember the real one which I got and give in the same time. It was long and legal and after separation, I do not know who was suffering me or her. I tried to forget her completely and keep my life goes on, never stop even I never asked about her news. My character little bit changed and I focused on my carrier to become in senior position, I cannot expect that will happen in few years, It was unbelievable achievement. Without extend more details, I was thinking to have all the best conditions around me, interact with more characters trying to implement what I was reading, hearing and believe in. I was imaging myself Plato who wants to live in utopia the perfect city or Don. Quixote who left his home to change the world or Robin Hood who was supporting poor people to give happiness. After while I realized that I cannot be those, I cannot be a hero, I cannot be ….. Because world is stronger than me. Two years before I decide to trap myself in different world, world cannot harm, can be changed, can be defeated. When I was young I was reading too much, but when I became man I started watching too much movies and choose the best and keep in my computer folder and through this folder I create my special world and the people who I like to live with. I used to watch this movies many times and concentrate in the characters and analyzing their behaviors, customs and traditions, not only men but also women. In each movie I was imaging myself the man who is seeking for adventure to find love that always win and overcome all difficult circumstances in the world. For me each character was unique. For example the one which I am using now (Flynn Rider) he looks like me. That was in Disney movie (Tangled), His real name is Eugene Fitzherbert and when he was child, he was used to reading to his colleagues the story for the rich man (Flynn Rider), he dreamed to be this rich man but unfortunately he turned to be a thief looking also to be reach, he miss the behavior and miss the target. I like to be (Flynn Rider who was in love with Rapunzel in Tangled), I like to be (Bill turner who was in love with Elizabeth Swan in pirates of the Caribbean), to be (Edward Cullen. Who was in love with Isabella Swan in twilight.), etc………. One time, I received a question through my account (Who are you?) This is complicated question and many times I tried not to answer, I do not know why I answered this time and my replay was as the following: Consider me Dr. Jekyll or Mr. Hyde, sorry those were old, got the new I am Flynn Rider; even Flynn Rider is not my real name, because I informed Rapunzel in the end of tangled movie that my real name is Eugene Fitzherbert.. I do not know if you are familiar with these names or not, but believe me I look like someone forget his real name, or try to forget as every time I am trying to hide behind imaginary character escaping from world I have never chosen. May be Dr. Jackal was having another character (Mr. Hyde), but I am looking different as I have many. It does not matter who I am, the matter is who I need to become. I am sailing between movies characters to get something I miss, not only the adventure, but also the special romantic moments and happy ends. It seems to you that I am crazy, sorry I consider madness is my reality. Your question has only one answer, but I do not have. This was my answer that I pretend myself as unknown person not only for me but also for others. I am mystery but as we know yesterday is history, tomorrow is mystery and today is gift..
Posted on: Thu, 15 Aug 2013 21:38:12 +0000
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