I dont know what to say or what it means, that picture... That picture made me think of that...I just remember thinking how am I gonna be able to do that.... Im not trying to confuse you or make it harder...but why was it posted? I only said anything because of that.... I dont know what Im supposed to say or think, just as firmly I remember you lying there and him bringing you food that you tasted after he left and then you got up and threw it out... I never said anything because it was during that week that you were trying to protect me so I dont know if thats accurate.... I could give you pros and cons all day...you lived it you could give them right back... Where do we go from here? I believe he wants whats best in his heart of hearts....but he tends to side with her.... Hes not perfect, who is? But, when you stand by and let you go through whatever when a phone call to me.... But.. I know he was upset that I wasnt calling even though he sent the email saying not to.... Like I said, you know best. I will support you either way....always...forever What I can absolutely say is hes not blameless. Hes not her...hes weak...something else occurs to me... That day, you know the day...he says to me he almost let you come with me but its their responsibility...so he didnt..again, its obvious he was influenced. He was trying to make me see, oh I saw alright, as he said things like we were only together 8months...but it was like he was going over it in his head, though it was already decided...he said things like it would be easier on his life to let you just come home, he actually said he almost did... Later, when I stood up for what we wanted and believed he ended up saying well see as in well see how that goes.... That probably lasted until he got home and there she was... You have to be accountable for yourself in life, if you arent...how much slack does he deserve? Just things to think about....maybe Ill pull a stone after I listen to all of them. I would do anything for you, give you anything I could, honestly, even after all this if I could have kept you from being hurt I would have..but I couldnt and wouldnt hide anything...I promised. But I tried until I gave up on them, for a better, different conclusion....I tried everything I could, I swear.
Posted on: Mon, 25 Aug 2014 07:34:49 +0000