I dont know where anyone got the gospel that because you call on the name of God, it means you will NEVER struggle or fight for anything in your life. If you believe such tripe, you will die unfulfilled, confused and miserable. Because you will know deep down that theres something you should do, but because you believe one ridiculous doctrine on sweatless victory; you will sit down and do nothing. Yes, I believe in favour. I believe in blessed over and beyond. But I also know that sometimes sh*tty crap happens. I was told something over the weekend that gave me goosebumps. And a new level of respect for the person who told me. I kept thinking, What if it was me? Even now, I genuinely dont know what I would have done. But it encouraged me. Sometimes, the things that are obstacles are a giant neon sign saying, DONT GO THERE. But there are sometimes that obstacles come to prevent you from getting to your next level. For some people, it might be OK to stay at the same level. But for some people, its like, If I dont move, I will die. And soon. Nearly two years ago, there was something I needed to do that meant I needed to be on Nigerian soil to do it. It made no sense to a lot of people because we all know how black people like to enter self-imposed exile as soon as we leave African soil. Lets just say that I found it more difficult to get back on Nigerian soil, than I found obtaining university admission. And anyone who has paid yearly sacrifice to JAMB more than twice, understands the implication of that statement. I know there were points where I was told, Maybe God has a greater plan for you here. It was tempting to listen to. But after a while, I said, That is BS. There is no greater plan that can involve me being in exile from Nigeria for the rest of my life. Especially when I know I didnt kill anyone or do any of those things that should make people afraid to step foot in the land that they come from. Only the devil can come up with that kind of plan. So, he was on-hand to give loooots of alternatives - some were through people who really should have known better. The few people who have heard the entire story (some of which is actually still unfolding) all have the reaction of, Is she writing another novel? This is not normal. Yes, there are some things you cannot explain. But I have always been very wary of people who claim that their lives have been hunky-dory since they muttered the salvation prayer. -their bank accounts have never been empty - they knew as soon as they met their spouse that they were the one & they have never argued - they have never been passed over for a job or promotion - they have never wondered where money for something mega-urgent is coming from; or how something is going to happen - they have never lost anyone, so theyve never had to wonder Why? - they have never second-guessed any decision theyve made (even when its the right one) - theyve always known what they wanted to do with their lives, and how it would go, and what they had to do at every point in their lives I stay away from such people because they have nothing to say, that any normal human should be listening to. The fact that something seems easy, doesnt mean that its the right thing. Just like the fact that something is challenging, doesnt mean its wrong. Its not the someone to validate a stupid decision you know youre about to make. Like he beats you and screws around on you. But you justify your self-hating decision to marry him by claiming Chi-Chi said that sometimes the right thing is tough. The beatings and STIs are tough to deal with, so this is the right thing & the devil is trying to take my joy. Nne, you are on your own because you are your own devil. Do what you like & do not fill my inbox with sob stories later. Doing the right thing wont always be easy. If youre anything like me (meaning you dont subscribe to the doctrine of Do not question God), you will find yourself taking digs at God. I remember recently having to return money after a cashier had made a mistake. I spent more money & time trying to return that money. And it was very aggravating - not because I had to return it, but I couldnt believe the unnecessarily lengthy process. And I kept going, God, can I just submit to you that I think this is your fault? I am trying to do the right thing by returning what is effectively chicken change - but it would be theft, if I took it anyway. And youre not even helping to ease the process. You know how much money I need & I dont see any of the people responsible for the deficit in my account, bending over backwards to make things right like this. Im not saying Im perfect; Im just laying it out for you that Im not very happy. Digs. The fact that something seems easy, doesnt make it the right thing. The fact that you see a challenge doesnt mean youre on the wrong path. Copyright, Chioma Nnani 2014
Posted on: Mon, 01 Dec 2014 08:25:55 +0000
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