I dont meant to get angry and frustrated and seemingly judgmental when it comes to the beginning(s) and the end,the first(s) and last chapters upon which much/most of the world defines itself--- but the perceptions of the beginning(s) and the end are like the clef note. They set the tone and pitch, the reference point(s) from which all other notes are derived forever. So when after nearly a year I have so blatantly failed in explaining the science and math of it, and how love (across generations, time and space, let alone the present), plays a role as a gravity to keep it (us, the Whole Organism of our Existence) together, not denying or ignoring the spiritual (very real) factor that fills a need in us, but happens to be true, when I have so utterly failed through words and images and concepts to explain what I know, I am frustrated and depressed that I have been so poor a teacher of something so essential and something that falls so naturally into place with the Universe around us, and without demanding blind faith or forcing us to stretch our imaginations, just our minds. When I fail to reach intelligent, special and clearly beautiful people in a protected and patient environment, for almost one year, (people who have themselves been literally a part of the explanation), what chance is there in the real world. It makes me want to quit trying. If the result of these Clef notes have not been so, were not so, and promise to continue to be so devastating and destructive until there are no more notes or music or sound at all, I would, I would quit. And there are days and months and years I have quit, and I suppose more ahead where I will. Some days I feel honored, or gifted or blessed and others I feel resentful and angry and trapped. Such is life, I guess. I dont judge (or really know) the body, the middle of most religions and philosophies, not in any expert way. Surely they are made up of more then the alleged miraculous beginnings (the beginning I have explained is pretty damn miraculous as is its promise for the future), and the sales pitch end --- concepts all of which I believe came after the fact of the pivotal lives and were not tied to the meat and potatoes of the messages of our religions. Many of the ideas and concepts were written down by men when we were infants in our understanding of the world, or were teenagers with new insight and hope, but not tempered with wisdom and real life challenges. I dont judge the middle (ok, except for that 40 virgin thing, which Ive dealt with in my Rah, Rah, Rah piece), and I suppose any other concept that disrespects or squelches the most healthy growth of children and women, or is not mature and or fully rounded in its thinking (much of which has to do with the clef notes, the reference points)--- and Ive tried to explain the essential need to maintain ones uniqueness (as an individual, religion, state, Country...) to collide with each other in the sweet spot and create new energy ( many dimensional Newtons Cradle, and the collisions of souls to communicate across time and space (Newtons Cradle in less dimensions), and the merging of minds (when minds Collide not at the sweet spot to bounce off each other and create new energy, but in a way as to end up merging together without destroying each other, but boundaries are blended), resulting in much needed and broader understandings that will lead to new discoveries and cures and rich worlds ahead --- but I know I will be misquoted, misread and misunderstood if I am considered at all. In the end, if what has happened here is any indication, I think there may be little change in my lifetime around me except that I will end up being hurt and ridiculed and called crazy --- what a strange world that my understanding/vision would be deemed crazy and the well, come on, absurd beliefs of our beginning and end, what so many hold true -- are deemed to be sane. Its very difficult to remain strong and happy in the middle of such absurdity. If Im not going to throw in the towel completely, and if Im not reaching people here, then I have to rethink the forum. I may approach Apple and see if I cant entice someone there to recreate this stream for me in daily chapters so that I can then take the daily scrolls and add more words to help glue the story together without jeopardizing the all important POP. But this is not a 2 dimensional story. It belongs in its many dimensional forms. So, if I can get someone to give me my scrolls, then I can hit up Apple or Facebook or Microsoft or Google, to recreate the Universe elsewhere where people can register to read it and maybe participate in a continuing stream. I dont know. This morning I just wanted to walk away and let the world do its thing. But it does seem like maybe Ive reached some people, if only to entertain them, and in this often mundane existence, that has a value too. I think there are greater possibilities here too, but I dont want to get ahead of myself. One step at a time. Is one of those steps completely walking away from this forum. I dont know. Just some thoughts.
Posted on: Sat, 05 Jul 2014 22:46:13 +0000