I found an old photo of both smiley and sad ‘faces’ in an album…It made me think about the good and bad times of my past… It also made me realize how eyeless and immature I was the “first and the second time” I attempted to believe that everyone was good and only plays fair....And since I am pure at heart (at least this is what I think anyway….and let only God be the judge of my character!), it is greatness and goodness that I see in people first….ONLY… However, I had to learn not to rely on the high benches of my expectations and on my courtroom of judgement if it comes to mankind….These expectations and judgements have always led me down the path of confusion, uncertainty and disappointment… In the past, I was blinded by the words of manipulation BUT most of the harm was done by my own infantile and fragile state of heart….My heart was on the quagmire of fear…It was afraid to let go of the past…it was scared to face the present and the future…Then I knew it was time for some adjustments… “Change starts with you, but it doesn’t start until you do.” Change was inevitable, and in my case not optional! I craved for some time to evaluate where the roots of my weaknesses and the fruits of my inner strength originate from… I don’t deny it…The games of the virtual wore me out a great deal (well done!) …But once I realized that I was not being treated with much respect, the game became easier and more enjoyable and fun....I guess even in chess, it is obvious that you have to treat your opponents with respect….It is part of the ethical rules of any game! I think the ‘game master’ made both an ethical and moral mistake! I believe he has intentionally tried to hurt, belittle and underestimate the participant….and he did not value the participants internal qualities, personality , ways of thinking, background…etc. Joyfully Honestly, I really don’t understand why….I am thinking “uncommon therapy “, perhaps??…Or maybe because I have never ever asked him for ‘His’ help and with that I might have offended his pro ego? I don’t know…All these questions, I guess will just have to stay in the clouds of fog… However, the participant has also made an error…Unintentionally, with words tried to encourage the ‘game master’ ,by almost forcing him, to try on the cloak of the participant’s emotional outfit…Big blooper. Bad participant. #ILoveReading #IHateLeading
Posted on: Wed, 19 Mar 2014 21:40:46 +0000