I got to admit, things are not going very well. I mean that as in its hard to lead a real and bold life. I cant imagine how Jesus did it. I mean, the constant rebukes, insults, judgment from all walks of life, the constant worrying of being killed for my beliefs/thinking, the people and their ideas of God, being afraid to be who I am because others dont understand or dont give a. My heart is this... that everyone realizes who God and Jesus are, to tell everybody who God is to me, to spread his love and compassion, and tell Satan to get the hell out of my life and stay away. All this religion is starting to get on my nerves. I hate getting mad over someone saying they will go to Heaven because their church told them how they could. I wish I wasnt feeling heartless. I feel cold, alone, and very much like Im about to die. I hate that no one understands what the true consequences for their actions are. This shit is getting more and more out of control then ever before. I try so hard to get Gods intentions through their heads. I try to be the person I need to be for others, but why does religion have to make this life so hard? I mean, Satan does lie, but most of what he does is use truth interlaced with a lie. Religion is nothing but a lie. I feel like that if I dont do something radical soon, my world will be over soon. I dont mean shootings, bombings, or any terrorist activity. I mean something that Jesus would do to get his point across. How did my life end up feeling like Hell? I know that this wasnt meant to be, but it is feeling like it. I call religion bullshit for a reason. The fact that they say We are not to judge but they do it every time someone who doesnt conform to their ideas or beliefs is crap. I listen to Christian metal, hard-core, punk, rock, rap, hip hop, dub step, metal core, and Nu metal. All this is being thrown out because they think that there is no such thing as Christian metal or rap or rock? What the heck? I dont care who you are, I KNOW there is. Also, Im being judged for the t.v. shows and movies I watch? Wow guys.. I know some of them are against our beliefs, but I like them. I like watching movies with violence, gore, blood and horror scenes. I try to skip parts with nudity as much as possible, and there are times when I watch them anyway. Ive never had a problem with lust for the actresses since most of the time, they arent even actually naked. I mean, come on guys. Its called visual effects for a reason. As for language... Most movies these days has that, so not very likely to skip that. If you want to judge me for this post, go ahead. Bring it on. I will counteract with those who dare to attack my God. I will defend his Word with him in my mind and heart and spirit, so dont test me. Its not worth losing your life for religion, Satan, or even Atheism. I found that even if you are an Atheist, you still believe in a god, its called science. That is what Jefferson Bethke, talks about in his video of Counterfeit gods. Im tired of typing this, but because Im supposed to testify of my weeks here at college, I have to. God is my witness, my judge, and my executor, not you guys. I leave this post to his satisfaction, and if it is not, I continue to hope for a chance to fix this. My only mistake so far is telling others about my bad spelling sometimes. Oh well. Love you all!
Posted on: Tue, 15 Oct 2013 20:59:04 +0000