I had a powerful dream last night on the theme of creative expression and carrying around age-old fears. It was about confronting or running away from the fear of truly being yourself in the world, of expressing who you are without limits. In the dream the fear was represented by a male figure who was following me and I began to run but everywhere I ran, placed me in even greater potential danger. (Dark alleyways, lonely back streets etc.) The figure was quietly taunting me, playing a game of cat and mouse. Somewhere in the middle of the dream I morphed into Jill Scott, who represents fearless creative expression to me. After a long chase with my fear mounting, I ducked into a shop having finally found myself on a busy street, and asked to use their phone to call the police. They couldnt find the phone straight away but asked me instead: What is your talent? Which seemed a very odd question in the circumstances. I was still really scared and couldnt think of an answer, I just wanted to be/feel safe. I tried to explain that there was someone chasing me and they (two women) pointed me to a back room where I could hide out. I felt the shop owners and a few other people Id passed along the way (some of them men), trying to keep this menacing figure at bay, so I could be safe, but I still felt great fear. Eventually, I heard the door to the room I was hiding in, creaking open and I/Jill came out of my hiding place and began to sing at this man. It was a powerful and defiant song. With an How dare you! energy to it. As I/Jill continued to sing, the male figure began to back away and I felt the power rising in me. As I carried on singing I entered that state between wakefulness and sleep and knew I had to record the melody before I forgot it. So I woke up and scrambled to find my phone. With eyes still half closed I sang the melody into my phone. I knew it was important for me to do this. As I lay there still half asleep I felt the insights begin to come. The dream was multi-layered and covered many aspects of who I had been, who I was, and who I was becoming. It was all about confronting the shadow self, the part of me that could be menacing and threatening and unaware. It was about embracing my talents and gifts fully, and recognising the power in that. It was about being willing to call on others for support and yet knowing ultimately that I had to be the one to step up and own my power and truth. It was about honouring the music and the words that flow through me. And it was about recognising that if I had chosen to confront the fear self from the beginning that I would not have had to experience the terror of being chased and feeling powerless for so long I have no doubt that many more insights will flow around this. But I know now even more, that: We are to face our inner shadows head on. They are a light, a glimpse into our inner workings. They allow us to embrace and accept all of who we are and own what needs to shift within us and as we do this, we are transformed and our true power finally has the space to reveal itself...
Posted on: Sat, 01 Nov 2014 03:16:00 +0000