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I had a wonderful meeting. The whole meeting was just for me. I have been having a hard time with the 12 step program. The 1st. Step admit that we are compulsive and cannot do it alone without a higher power to help us. The higher power (HP) can be anything. Even your meeting an literature, or what works for you. What my HP is God. And to say Im helpless is no big deal for me. Matter of fact its a relief. It lets me off the hook. But, now what? Okay. God will do it for me. I really like that a lot. Okay, Im waiting for my cure. But, nothings happening. I still Im sick. God help already! Okay, there are 11 more steps but, what ever. How do I do them? Each time I have trouble I say God help me. Then I eat. Its become my before my meal prayer. But then I binge, not just eat. So today I had a step meeting. And the group was on Step 11 GOD AS WE UNDERSTOOD HIM. Sought though prayer and meditation to improve our conscious contact with God as we understood Him, praying only for knowledge of His will for us and the power to carry that out. Okay. Im really compulsive and I want to do this in order and 11 is not order! But, 11 is a How To Step. Just what I was asking for in that God Help Me! And the men and women there all talked about themselves and how this step works in there life. And as each one spoke I heard myself. And today I now know what step I need to take to move forward. God her and my prayers. And he gave me a group of people willing to help me. Im not alone calling for help any more. God has given me people, meetings, phone contacts, literature, Internet, audio books and meetings, 12 steps and 9 traditions, Tools, and a sponsor for one on one help. And let me know I was never a lone. I will always have the Father, Son, and Holy Spirit right by my side. And there is nothing I can do or say to make them leave me. Oh I may leave them, but they are always with me. Three in one always in my heart. And always part of me. God is funny like that. Todays meeting is what I really needed more than I knew. Thank you Jesus!
Posted on: Sat, 02 Nov 2013 18:38:51 +0000

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