I had the most profound experience happen today. As all of you have seen, and heard, Alexis is in a pageant tomorrow in Centerville, Iowa. What a lot of you dont know is that I was in the same pageant in 1992. I remember getting my head-shot and my high school boyfriend telling me that I looked like a woman of ill-repute (but not in those words). I had no idea how bad those words hurt and had taken such a toll on me. I hadnt seen my picture since those 20 plus years ago, and I didnt really want to, b/c what I remembered were the words that he used. I thought it was ugly and not a good picture in any way. I was signed by a modeling agency the next year, and still believed his venomous tongue. The same photography studio still takes the heads-shots (Browns, in Centerville, IA), and he graciously went digging for mine. I longed to see it, to see if I really did resemble a lady of the night - that I should have been ashamed or embarrassed. If not, I really wanted a keepsake with my picture, my daughters and possibly my other daughter or nieces when they came of age to compete. They are a little different because we had ours taken in our evening gowns, whereas now they are taken in a button-up shirt. My mother came home with it today, and when I opened it, I literally crumpled into tears, and Ive still got them pouring down my cheeks tonight. You know what I found out? I was beautiful. I was classy. I was pretty. And, you Sir, who will definitely have no doubt of who you are .... I hope and pray you have changed or I feel so sorry for your wife and daughter. You were mean spirited then, and there is no room for that in a happy family. If not ... your words have eaten at me for 20 plus years! I dont even care about publicly calling you out, b/c you never gave me the courtesy of privacy when you were verbally and physically abusive to me. Well, guess what? You have no hold on me. Eat your heart out b/c my husband wakes up loving me, and goes to bed loving me, and I ended up with the real prize. I am his queen. God made me to be so. God answers prayers when they are to be answered and how they are to be answered. For everyone else, please remember, words leave scars.
Posted on: Sat, 27 Sep 2014 02:48:43 +0000
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