I had to make a choice between my friends and family or Elliott. Unfortunately I took too long to decide and lost a lot of caring people. People that cared too much to watch me suffer and lose myself bit by bit. People that told me over and over that if i didnt make a choice theyd have no choice but to move along in life without me. I was dead weight to many. I blinked and everything and everyone I loved was gone. The person I knew myself as; loud, vibrant, funny and even shy, she was gone. I lost everything that mattered to me for someone that didnt even give me a second thought. A person that would never find beauty and comfort in me. A person that lied and descieved me many times. Im slowly trying to take back what was mine. Finally trying to take charge of MY life. I solely have the power to change what I dont like about my life and myself. Im struggling. I cry most days. I have a difficult time smiling or seeing good in anything, but I know itll be worth all the pain and suffering in the end. Landon and I have a great future ahead of us; filled with love and happiness.
Posted on: Tue, 11 Nov 2014 02:31:14 +0000