I had trichotillomania when I was a kid. I used to wrap my hair around my fingers when I was about to fall asleep, and rip out the hair I had knotted and put it behind the bed. In first grade, second grade, third grade? -- I used to rip out my eyelashes because they would itch, and it would feel good to get them loose. Probably was when I was feeling some anxiety/nervousness, and it was my way of getting control of the situation. Someone noticed while I was waiting to get into the computer room beside them, and asked if it hurt, and I said it didnt.. When I was in sixth grade is when kids really started to notice and treated me in a condescending manner, and I got very self-conscious, as I had begun ripping out my eyebrows in addition to my eyelashes, which gave me a very alien-look. I tried to cover up with eyebrow pencil one day, and everyone was pointing out that I had marker on my face. :( Its around this time that I went into self-injury, and I was able to rely on that and conceal that.. When my teenage years hit, I went into dermatillomania fits when Id get really uncomfortable. It was a zen place for me. Ive put trichotillomania behind me, and its very rare now that I let dermatillomania get the best of me. In addition to that, I have over a year of refraining from self-harm. Its a struggle that very few understand. Thank-you for being so bold and allowing your voice to be heard.
Posted on: Sun, 21 Sep 2014 19:22:51 +0000
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