I hate this day when it comes around and with saying that I also feel ashamed. Today is treatment day and as each treatment comes I hate it more and more. I hate the inconvenience of it and I hate the reminder of what it stands for. The shame for these feelings comes from how dare I think this way when there is still options available to me, how dare I not continuously feel the blessing that when i get this treatment for these 3 days, My body receives it well with very few side effects, how dare i not continuously remind myself others who suffer are not as fortunate as I at this stage of the disease and would give their lives to have the good fortune of a treatment that thus far is working!!! Life just feels so normal and i feel so good up until treatment day and then I allow my mind to head south with pity and negativity for myself and I have to find strength in not allowing these thoughts to enter my head. So for the next few hours until treatment time I will focus on the good fortune I have and prepare myself mentally to show up, suck it up and continue on. Please share your prayer today not only for me but for those that are fighting just as hard as me, who have much more of a struggle at this time than me and pray they find comfort and peace today and their days to come. I HATE CANCER!!!#NoOneFightsAlone!!!!
Posted on: Wed, 29 Oct 2014 12:03:53 +0000
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