I have PTSD. I have given myself a mission to Advocate for others needing help. I am not ashamed anymore of what my Father did to me as a child under five. It was not my sin,. But it was my nightmare. Marijuana healed that scar,. By allowing me break on through to the other side of my wall. I could approach my nightmare and allow myself to wake up. I understand some folks might be unsettled by my open conversation in such a Public Forum., Public media. Did not exist when I was breaking out of my emotional prison,. My fathers name is Jan Louis Saunders., he lives in McCalla Al, in Jefferson County Al off Pocahontas Rd. :-) Let me explain to you what FaceBook is to me. Last spring and early summer my former employer had just drove me batty,. I needed an outlet for my manic racing thoughts and ideas. When I told therapist after therapist or psychologist what my father did to me at age 8 & 9,. I might as well as told a brick wall. I was given a real fine education into what was important in life,. His money and influence among women (therapists) he seduced with his truths and Elvis! Looks,. I decided then that therapist could not be trusted when they themselves could be so easily played by a child molesting monster. Pure and simple. It is very awesome to me,. That I can use FB to reveal my thoughts and ideas or musings or rants,. Not leave the safety of my solitary life Yet reach everyone (figuratively) Its very important that I speak out about others pain including my own. Im now trying to heal another trauma To myself., and this is how Im choosing to do it. Publicly!! If I have something to hide,. Its gonna be because Im investigating something,. Its best to hold evidence until prosecution asks for it. But,. Im healing my injuries and emotions doing what I need to do to get there. If my posts amuse you,. LAUGH If they alarm you,. Its probably a good thing your alarmed,. I try to put out info that interests me. But oftentimes,. Even I am just disgusted with human behavior - so,.. Be alarmed. If they mean nothing to you,. Cool! I posted for me- not you. But know this,. I am going to be doing a lot of advocacy and will most definitely cause some folks some very real headaches. Ill try to have myself prepared for battle,. But I want to say its,. Just Business!,.. But I will take every fight personal! I am fighting back in order to have my wounded spirit back., healthy and strong. When Im healed,. Ill lay down the proverbial Sword. Deal?,
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