I have a feeling this one is going to be long. And complicated. And its mostly me talking to me. I would just try to work this out on my own, but I tend not to listen to my own advice unless I put it where others can see it. So, it begins with a death. This week, at burning man, a woman fell from a bus and died. It was a terrible tragedy and my heart goes out to her family, her friends, her campmates, anyone who witnessed the accident, anyone whose life was touched by this woman, and anyone like myself who spent time wondering (was it someone I know?) At first that was the full extent of the details and I spent hours wondering if it was anyone I knew, if it was perhaps even my own Monique Darling, During these hours as my wife was playing as Schrodingers Cat in my mind (both potentially alive, and potentially dead) I went through a bizarre range of emotions. At one point as I imagined a world without Moinque, I thought of the books she is planning to write, the events she has on her calendar, and I felt a desire to continue her legacy. FLASHBACK : Recently (before this) a dear friend of mine was talking on the phone with me and was describing the characteristics of a great teacher who had been in his community. A fellow who just tended to wander around people and by simply paying attention to them, seeing them, hearing them, helped them to blossom. He went on about how the fellow was simply interested in people and accepting of them; and as I listened I thought Hmmm, this guy I might aspire to be. As he was finishing his description he said You know I am talking about you right? wait. What? So as I am sitting in my car, wondering if my legally married wife is alive or dead, wondering about how to continue her legacy it occurs to me that I have a legacy of my own to continue. One that I have put almost no time or effort into since moving back to Utah. I dont get out, I dont really do anything but work, take care of my boys and hide away from the oppressive air of conservative judgement that permeates the landscape. Good news, btw, she is not dead. She can continue her own legacy, Cause I have a lot to do.
Posted on: Sat, 30 Aug 2014 17:59:58 +0000
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