I have a very special man. Last night he gave me the most precious anniversary gift. My 3 year anniversary is coming up on 9/23 and James - in his excitement - decided he couldnt wait to give me half of my present. For a little back-story: A couple years ago my sister and I organized and packed up my Moms belongings as she prepared to move to a nursing facility. While we didnt say it aloud, we knew this was a pivotal moment - so we went through that sober action with whatever joy we could muster; we relished touching and going through all our childhood mementos and shared funny stories and exchanges. Sometimes tears. During that process, I found approximately 20 rolls of undeveloped (old) film - what a find!! I took them intending to have them developed - but knew Id have to wait as I wasnt quite ready for the pain of those memories... our loss had already begun at that point and my Mom was still alive. It has been just over a year since we lost our Mom - my siblings and my biggest advocate, champion, hero; and I decided recently that I was ready to develop that film... it was time to honor that wound by looking at those dear memories. I went to look for the film with a deep sense of readiness, albeit fear (I knew exactly where I placed them - but they werent in my special hiding spot...) I forgot to mention the missing gems to James and went about life. About 3 weeks passed and fast-forward to last night... When I got home from my ritual dinner with my oldest stepdaughter, I walked into the house and immediately went to the bathroom where my husband was taking a bath. I sat down on the floor to catch up on our respective evenings, as is our custom, and finally asked him about the packages of film envelopes I saw on the kitchen table...he explained that they were my anniversary present and I could open them now if I wanted. AS SOON as the words left his mouth, I knew EXACTLY what was inside, and IMMEDIATELY broke down into gushing tears. You know the kind? The ugly cry. Im not one for knee-jerk reactions or immediate bouts of tears... so maybe you can appreciate what a huge moment that was for me. He didnt say anything to me; he just smiled at me with that look of knowing; that look that goes to the heart where you dont have to use words. I dont want to ruin it by trying to explain... It just feels so good to be known and so deeply loved. I am grateful. I am so blessed.
Posted on: Tue, 16 Sep 2014 23:05:04 +0000
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