I have been retired for a couple years now.... Miss it like I did the night I was driving my patrol car and my back hurt so bad I was afraid to get a service call because I knew I could not perform.. Drove back to the station and realized my fate sitting in the parking lot that my surgery did not work and I was exiting a patrol car for the last time... I miss those Friday night swing shifts... Coming to work having that feeling like I was about to play in a High School football game.. U know those jitters in ur stomach that is a full plate of joy with a side dish of fear... But feeling so blessed that I was about to dawn a uniform that few get to wear, place a silver star on my chest that I worked so hard for and working with a group of people that I knew no matter what I drummed up over the next 12 hours, had my back and wanted me to find the biggest baddest bad guy that would run, fight and run again so we could all spend the majority of our shift full of adrenaline. I miss my career, I miss it some days more than others. Today is one of those days. I am thankful though, thankful for all the wonderful people I worked with that made me a better cop every day, thankful for bonds I had and have with most of you that still carry on to this day, thankful for my wife who followed me around during those 13 years chasing bad guys, dealing with me putting my career in front of our marriage (so sorry babe) thankful for my wife who dealt with me not coming home for days on end and worrying about me when I was too busy to call and tell her I am ok, or having to watch the news to realize the call out I was on went smooth, thankful for my children that dealt with dad not being there for them because work took me away but stood by my side anyways and still do. I miss the job I felt I was born to do, some days more than others, today is one of those days. My brothers and sisters in blue, carrying a gun, dispatchers, evidence techs and supervisors, take it from a guy that has had it all torn away, be thankful be motivated, relight the fire that may have been smothered by tough working environments, cut paychecks and low staffing levels and remember that feeling in ur stomach the day u graduated from the academy and enjoy every minute you have sitting in that patrol car, looking over those push bumpers waiting for that next call... You are blessed to be in the position u r in... Enjoy it, grab hold of it every day... But do not let it grab hold of u... Miss you all.... Last thing, encourage others that may not see this to do the same... Now do me a solid and go find a POS and take him/her to jail!
Posted on: Sat, 03 Aug 2013 22:56:35 +0000
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