I have held this piece of my life secret from everyone but a small few. I wish I didnt have to come onto a social site and tell such a thing, There are many reasons I am legally permitted to grow marijuana for my medical use, or at least that I assert exist but need to prove. This is not hard to talk about: I am physically disabled by a horrible syndrome, called Klippel-Trenaunay. It affects only 1 in 100,000. Without MMJ the pain is crushing to the spirit of a person, you can not function, prescription narcotics have caused me problems with agitation and mania. The same leg also suffers degenerative joint disease, caused by the abnormal gate that developed as my bones continue to grow out of proportion to correct anatomy in my left leg. The entirely of my legs lymphatic system is also compromised, as they are malformed and chronically inflamed. There are no medicines I can safely take to treat the inflammation, this will be verified through decades of medical records. In addition to lymph nodes and the bones, the veins are grossly abnormal and affect the entire limb. If a doctor will come forward and testify that I need to use MMJ for my leg, to sleep at night(which is a legal requisite to be able to participate in my own defense), that is sufficient to get us a winnable argument in a pre-trial motion that would set a precedent for patients in the rest of the USA that do not have legal access. It would mean life to tens of thousands. That is the best victory I believe my efforts would have ever been able to attain, a total victory for everyone. My victory in court just gives what is good for me, essentially validation as an otherwise honorable member of society. But, it seems like a really tiny prize when we consider what would happen next... Is someone else then going to come forward? If no one else did come forward, then I would say overall it was a poor use of my health to do this, because what did I accomplish for me personally but losing money and suffering in health only to win the right to do what I was already getting away with. So, if I can find a doctor, everyone wins. Because precedent will have been established. This is the very hard part to talk about: If no doctor will come forward, then we will win at trail because no jury is going to convict me for growing on top of all my physical woes, when my alternative for treating my mental/emotional illnesses was electro convulsive therapy, and that this is documented in my medical records and as a result the state should dismiss charges amicably. Telling strangers the depth of my mental/emotional problems, so as to be advised electric shock, was not something I was looking forward to doing as is probably obvious. I have found a clear correlation in my emotional stress levels and out of control blood sugar. The days leading up to court appearances spend every ounce of reserve I have because the emotions I content with when thinking of the trial are as real and as painful as if they were occurring at the time of trial. This is a everyday, never goes away struggle until it is over. I will walk the line, whatever the state requires.
Posted on: Tue, 30 Sep 2014 16:30:19 +0000
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