I have no launch planned. No fancy business design to make happen or Internet revolution to stir up. No burning desire to grow my list or go on speaking tour. These things, in their own timing and space, have their own degree of holiness and Yes. But, these days, I relish the profound all encompassing focus of reorganizing my kitchen. Of creating a bedtime routine so sacred and beautiful for my son, it sends him to sleep in bliss and leaves me wheeling in the indescribable, magical feeling of family. Of seeing my partner soar as a father. Of seeing my son blossom from babyhood to toddlerhood. I sit each morning - whether it be out on the beach, or under our juniper tree in the backyard, depending on where I am- and feel the bliss of being a yes to it all. To it all. The thoughts, the birds, the wind, the ache, the sorrow, the joy, the breath. All of it. This too is what success looks and feels like. I am constantly amazed, because I grew up thinking motherhood had no value. Only being out there in the world, of the world...shining, known, effective... That was the realm of success. Motherhood-- weak, ordinary, useless. I had no idea. So I am continually shocked when I find that creating an amazing, functional kitchen, or that sinking into the vast delicious love of breastfeeding is so utterly fulfilling. I am part of an epidemic, you see. A craziness. A deep realm of insanity in our culture. Because I did not know the value of the mother. Until our culture understands her and sees, recognizes and celebrates her - more than one day a year - we will continue to struggle with how to care for our environment while we do business in the world, with how to care for our own well being and those of others while we produce and create and do. It is all so inextricably linked: how we view the mother, and how we view the greater Mother that supports and sustains all life. For me, it has taken walking this path to really get it, to really see and wake up to the mind slumber so much of our civilization is in. I was there. And now I am here, in the land of full body loving and knowing. I am so happy to be here. No one told me when I graduated from high school or college about the value of becoming a mother. I would have been ashamed at the time to have said I wanted to be one, so far away it was from what seemed successful or impressive. Now I am the wiser. This is the most outstanding thing Ive ever done, and there is no one there telling me thank you when I host an awesome bath time. There is no one there patting my back when I have to deal with a small creature who pinches my skin while he nurses. Its the well of loving and caring without end that makes this all so incredible. Its touching every part of my life and is making me a fuller, more beautiful person. I know that because the world is becoming fuller and more beautiful, so it must be my eyes... The one who is seeing... That is changing. My prayer is that our culture comes to see the deep value of motherhood and the source of love, wisdom and nurturing that it is. My prayer is that we integrate these attributes into how we work and create our civilizations institutions. If we dont, we are fcked. But when we do - and I believe we will- we will be healed of the deep psychic pain of devaluing Her that has silently existed in our collective consciousness for a long, long time.
Posted on: Tue, 02 Dec 2014 06:24:09 +0000