I have shared my history and my life and family for over 2 months..posting some 64 posts all associated with this gem of a cafe that I have been blessed to of owned for 12 years.I call it a gem because it has been a part of me for over 20 years.I have given my soul to this little Price Street icon..I worked one full year with no pay.Not one penny for one year.I would do it again and again.(Lord...I argued and fought with my Dale). I just could not leave.So as I write my last post I look to my journals and its a painful post.The year is 2007/2008.The economy hits a brick wall and for the first time I am worried.For the first time I have to lay off 2 people and cut hours.I watch the horror finance shows and so many people I know are struggling .Many places go out of business.Huge companies fail and our housing is in the worst slump in history.Dale was at work 3 days a week so lot of nights I would be awake hours..and hours.One night I remember vividly. I am on my couch and when you are in a state of panic your mind goes to a dark place.My mind starts spinning and I ask myself..What if my cafe closes? I have to get a job My crew??? I put myself in full blown anxiety attack and I run to my bathroom throw water on my face and I stand there..I look up and see myself in the mirror tears falling and a complete breakdown..I just bend over and cry.It was one of my saddest moments.Your mind sometimes plays tricks on you and its up to you to get up,brush yourself off and conquer your fear..Months go by.I see a light at the end of this nightmare.I learned it takes patience not panic.It takes fight not defeat.You have to believe..and also have a little luck in there too..I am 52 years old and I still make mistakes and I still am learning.One gift to myself..My cafe will never make us rich with money but it will make me rich with wonderful memories,a wonderful crew and amazing friendships.I truly am honored to of shared this part of my life with you.I know when I do decide to say good-bye and move on to my next chapter of my life.This little cafe will remain in my heart and I hope it remains in all of your hearts too.So in closing..64 posts, terrible grammar,and a true mess at times,This is my ending.Peace.
Posted on: Mon, 12 Jan 2015 03:30:21 +0000
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