I have so much to say today, partially because my heart goes out to many people going through different kinds of heartaches (something every single one of us trudge through), but part of what is going through my mind is to be prudent in choosing what to say. I just want to be wise and part of that is knowing that I dont know as much as there is to know. This past week I havent been able to get enough sleep. Im honestly just not at peace when I lay my head down. Part of me wants to stay awake because I dont want to miss something, part of me wants to sleep because I am weary, part of me wants to fill my time with bold and dashing adventures, part of me wants to sleep away any anguish, part of me wants to become acutely aware of the parts of this life I have yet to discover, and part of me wants to spend my time being more advantageous. I dont know. From a young woman who used to sleep until three in the afternoon as a teen struggling with depression I feel like theres no more time for feeling bad. I feel that theres more than being pitiful and petty so I sometimes let that in the way of realizing that we all need help. I always want to help people and I tell the people I do help that Im not perfect. I hate the idea of them looking up to me and not to Jesus. Ive got some pretty tough things going on, but I have just learned to be joyful through most of them because I know things will be okay. I have my days. I just know Jesus will make a way. P.S. Todays not one of those days. Im just thankful and sober. =)
Posted on: Thu, 24 Apr 2014 15:19:52 +0000
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