I have so to say that I was so panicked with Anxiety yesterday and was shaken like I was afraid of something or someone or maybe something, Now I know a lot if people out there Dont understand Anxiety/Panic Dis-order PTSD or simply choose to ignore that it is Actually a real and crippling Disease to most people in the World especially in Woman. I have been living with this for 7 years and I can tell you its REAL its as Real as the Nose on your face, and the sad part about it is when you try and explain it to someone you love or a friend who does not get they cant seem to Fathom it, they will never ever know the Severity of this powerful Disease that completely consumes you Entire Being, I used to be able to go out if my house on my own Drive myself to work, take my kids places, play softball 3 times a week and the list goes on, now I cant even get out of Bed without taking my medicine first, I cant drive anywhere except around my neighborhood and on a good day maybe a little further, I dont play softball anymore a sport I played for 35 years a sport that gave me a night out to relieve STRESS, stress is the Leading cause and triggers a Panic/Anxiety attack instantly so if you can avoid Stress it helps, another helpful piece of information is Getting in your car and drive around the block or walk but with Music, music helps the brain to stop thinking to much. But I feel the biggest key is to avoid the negative people in your life the people who feel that its all in your head, the people who laugh and think its a joke and tell you to get over it. Well sorry people this is not something I asked for or can Just get rid of and to all you negative people, or the people who are ignorant and blind I have no use for any of you. So please just dont talk to me, friends and family who actually care and dont criticize can stay in my life friends & family that the need to purposely ignore your texts, phone calls and down right everything knowing it will cause an attack I call you Selfish, ignorant and One Way and you can stay the Hell out of my LIFE!!! I have 5 kids 1 of whom my oldest deals with this but my 4 younger children have to suffer the episodes I have and its not fair to them, but they all know that they come first and no matter what I will always be there for them, see even with this paralyzing disease my children are exceptional In school and play sports and keep a normal life so to all of you out there who think people with PTSD Crazy, Mad all the time, Scared of dying in their sleep an basically afraid of everything around them I pray for you all because I used to ignore my Mother the one person in the Whole world who understood this disease and lived with it for 27 years but I too could not be bothered with it now understand what she was going through and when I got this disease she was helping me through it but passed only 2 months after and I fell deeper my ROCK was gone but I know she is here with God and our Lord helping me with this everyday. And I now say to you what she used to say to me I WOULD NEVER WISH this on anyone, and You never will know what I am going through unless you experience yourself. This one is for all the People who suffer from this everyday I Am With you 👯👼🙏😘
Posted on: Sun, 30 Mar 2014 14:09:37 +0000