I have to tell you something interesting. I was asked in a message yesterday If i had slipped up... I at first was really irritated by her nosey nature. And as the messages continued she didnt believe me when I told her the truth about my recovery right now. She hasnt seen me nor talked to me except a like or a comment here and there....so o really had to wonder why is she so interested in believing that I may have used instead I am just doing a real program and I have probably disappointed a lot of people with the fact that I didnt follow up to their expectations....Im still sober. I am emotionally unsteady at times, anxiety ridden, social dysfunctional and really stuck in some old behavior that could definitely take me back out there if I dont continue with constant recovery. I am human, and pushy, overbearing and inpatient. I have anger issues and I have no tolerances for anyone who uses addiction to catfish people instead of just go finish getting done. Look I am not perfect and I barely ...have 11 months barely, but believe and know I worked hard to fight my addiction. Not for anyone on fb. In the streets...not my family and not my kids, for me. So am I mad someone inquired if I have gotten hi in the last 11 months....Im pissed off that the person just insisted on purposely mess with me....not to encourage me but to let me know that the talk on the street is I have slipped up. Let me say it this way. Take your own inventory, get a job or hobbies, but I suggest you might want to fond someone to talk to, if you are associating with those who do dope, I dont think Im the one who is putting themselves in a bad situation. Watch the company you keep, who you hang around with is what you become. I am working an honest program today ...that makes me someone no longer someone sick, healing in the rooms of NA. Sorry devil, not this time, not ever again, will I be the one.
Posted on: Sat, 12 Jul 2014 05:17:51 +0000