I honestly hadnt expected to post so soon again on Facebook. I have lots of work, commitments to keep well and as my husband insists, REST DAMN IT, because Ive come down with some stupid bug and he doesnt want it to get worse. But you guys, I am honestly so overwhelmed right now and Im in TEARS. Not just those one or two little sips that slip down someone face when something touches them and then they shrug and move on. Im talking about the ugly, red, blotchy face with water pouring from my eyes, nose running, red and also swollen. But in the best possible way. Sounds contradictory right? Im going to make an honest confession to you and Im going to tell you the honest truth about something. Yes, Ive been under an enormous amount of stress. Personal, professional, illness, anxiety, you name it Ive experienced it. And I was terrified to finally ADMIT not just to myself. That was hard enough. But to my agent, editors and publishers that I had to take a break and not write SO much in a year. Ok that was hard, yes. I wont lie. But do you know what terrified me the MOST? It wasnt telling my agent. Shes my biggest cheerleader and advocate and I knew shed do whatever it took to kick ass and protect me and my best interests. But still, who likes admitting that kind of thing to their biggest advocate (professionally) It wasnt telling my editors, though, God knows I was plenty scared and I didnt sleep for several nights and it took a lot of courage to admit to them what I had only recently been able to admit to MYSELF. No, do you want to know who I was MOST terrified of sharing what I shared today with? YOU. My readers. The people who are the SOLE reason I HAVE a career to slow down on The people who have supported me, have shown me so much love and have opened my eyes to the sort of kindness one only rarely hears about in a news soundbite. I was utterly paralyzed with fear to post what I posted this morning and you know what? I am so deeply ashamed now that I was AFRAID of letting yall down, of losing your respect and support. I am completely overwhelmed and blown away by the sheer volume of encouraging messages, private messages, emails, you name it. I am so humbled that all I can do is sit here, tears pouring down my face, sniffling noisily as I read the positive, uplifting, supportive and encouraging messages from the people who are THE single most important aspect of my career. You can not possibly know what your messages, private or otherwise, have meant to me. You can not possibly know or even understand just how much I needed to read those messages right here and now. Or how much they have touched my heart. My post of the other day about how one single act of kindness can truly make a difference, can truly change someones life. I never imagined when I posted that challenge that I would be the recipient of so MANY acts of kindness and generosity and that so many of you would take precious time out of your day to go OUT of your way to send such wonderful messages of love, encouragement, support and most of all, understanding. So thank you. From the bottom of my heart. From the bottom of my familys heart. For taking the time to offer support and encouragement to someone who greatly needed it. You will never know or realize just how much this has meant to me. I love each and every one of you dearly, and I will always do my absolute best to never let you down. xoxo
Posted on: Fri, 09 Jan 2015 23:18:39 +0000
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