I just called the worst enemy that i have ever encountered...and said No. As in.. The battle that was designed to destroy and consume us both..that you have worked so hard at achieving, i will not let it win. So i did the worst imaginable thing that i could ever do in that situation, but in truth? It was the best weapon i had to use. I chose peace over the war shes been waging against me. The weapon of choice that i chose today, in doing the unthinkable...talking directly to this enemy. I told her...every single detail about the first day we met, and the first day that i fell in love with her. I reminded her of the beauty and love that i saw in her..i reminded her of how hopeful i was for us...when she first came to see me the second day we met. I told her every word that she told me that day. I told her that in truth? I have never been the same since. So i reminded her of all of the things that i had forgiven her for that she had done to us, but the most tragic of it all i told her? Is that the day i fell in love with her a part of me has never stopped loving her, thats why i have been friendly, cordial the best i could threw it all even the times i have risked my life for her coming to her cries for help. I said to her..the tragedy is? Is that you have never been able to see just how much i loved you, and just how much i truly cared. So i said to her.. I know that what Im about to say you probably wont understand or relate to it at all.. But said to her. I love you..i always have..but when i hang up this phone? Youll never ever see of hear from me ever again. Goodbye. Today was a breakthrough for me....i looked a very probable fate in the eyes that was designed to destroy me..and said no...i chose love over hate..i chose peace over war. My spirit is at rest and at peace once more. I had to let my spirit fight that battle... The weight of the world has been lifted off of my spirit. I move forward into a very promising future, and i will continue to be the loving person..loving spirit that i know i am. Her wrathful, reckless ways will not consume me. This has been the hardest 10 weeks of my life in honesty...i have felt the most hatred and most rage that i ever have in my life.....in the last ten weeks. No...it will not consume me. This is the best display of self control that i have ever..i mean ever done........in that i am triumphant. The devil offered me the best meal and desert dish i have ever seen..and i refused it. Extremely tempting, but no...karma has something better... My life has just been rebooted... At last i can breathe again. LMB
Posted on: Wed, 30 Jul 2014 23:30:03 +0000
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