I just want to say THANK YOU to every single person that has reached out to me and my family over the last 24 hours. It means so much to us and we feel so loved and supported. When I decided to change my life, I knew that I had to tell my story in order to stay sober and be usefully whole. We all know that I came from the depths of pure hell. We all know that I had a serious heroin addiction before, and during my pregnancy. We all know that I had to fight to change my life in order to be Camerons mother and keep custody of him. And, we all know that he has autism that comes with developmental delays and sensory issues. When Cam was born I had to make the choice of whether I was going to let these things completely destroy me, or let them change me. Those were my only two choices. And, to destroy me meant death. Even though death sounded good to me for a long time, God finally gave me a reason to want and need to live. Sometimes, if the truth of who I am and where I came from is worded a certain way, I can let it get to me. And, I can know all these things, but when Camerons name is brought into it can hurt. All I want to do today is be a good mother, be a good daughter and sister, be a good friend, and help other people because I know that that is Gods purpose for me. That is honest truth. I dont say any of that to make myself sound like a saint. I will not let other peoples words and opinions get in the way of who I am and where I am at. I always say it is what it is, it was what it was, and it took what it took. I know deep down that God made me and Cameron the way he did for a reason. And, I am to use our situations to help and inspire others and give a message of HOPE, LOVE AND FAITH. I love sharing my life as an open book. I love sharing my thoughts, feelings, progress with Cameron, pictures and all the other things God is doing in my life. It keeps me going. Everyones support and encouragement helps me, especially on days when I feel completely overwhelmed. I read in one of my meditation books this morning that our real purpose in life is to fit ourselves to be of maximum service to God and the people about us. And, that God loved me enough to take me from where I was so that I could be made a useful participant in His world. And, my response is to LOVE all of His children through service and example. So, thats what I am going to continue to do. I want all of you on Facebook to know that I would not be sober without each and every one of you. And, without sobriety, I couldnt be a good mother or anything else. Yall encourage me and support me, and it honestly keeps me going. So, today I am going to rise back up and try to do, say and act the way God would have me. I hope you all have a beautiful day and I truly love you all. Thanks again yall.
Posted on: Sun, 03 Aug 2014 14:36:15 +0000
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