I just want to take a moment to express how sincerely grateful and appreciative I am for all of the kind and caring and supportive words my real and true friends have sent my way since Tuesday night when Jewel passed away. I realize its difficult to even know what words to say sometimes... Just know that Im glad to have you as friends, no matter how far away. You have been here for me when I really needed you. im still trying to cope with the loss of Jewel... still not sure what to do and miss her terribly... been up all night having trouble sleeping and crash at 6 or 7am then sleep during the day... its very difficult to be in this house without her here. a lonely, empty, lost feeling. I wont lie or pretend to be okay... im trying my best to cope and keep going. Jewel was with me through everything... always... and this year was already a struggle from january onward... her death has been the hardest, most painful *anything* that I ever felt or had to see or go through in this life. I know that wont make sense to everyone... especially those who have lost loved ones or know how my mom died of cancer in 2010 and then my grandmother. I was a lot more prepared for their deaths... mentally and emotionally... and to be honest, I was closer with Jewel. she was my baby dog. It killed me and broke my heart to have to put her to sleep but there was nothing else that could be done to end her suffering that day. even in an oxygen cage her heart was too weak and breathing too labored. It was horrible... and I wont go into everything... too personal to say on here.
Posted on: Sun, 21 Sep 2014 23:08:09 +0000
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