I know Im really late but this is something I forgot to post that I try to do every year on the day....If I forgot to tag anyone, please know I still love you too lol. DAY 5 On this day 4 years ago at 11:57 pm I almost lost my life and everything that I had worked so hard for all because I chose to take it for granted and trust someone I thought was my friend. There isnt a day that goes by that I dont think about it because the pain I have is nothing but a constant reminder. I use to be so angry and hated that person so much, but I finally learned to let it all go. I started to realize that the only person that I was hurting was myself and that had to change. The past four years have been nothing but horrible(to me). I was depressed for such a long time, the pain became unbearable, and I felt like nothing but a failure(especially since all of this crap is going on) because nothing was going right. It wasnt until recently that I started to really see the potential that I have, all the good that I had done and still can do. I know right now I want to just pull my hair out and give up on everything, but I cant and wont. God chose to keep me on this earth that night. For what reason, I sometimes think I will never know. But there is one. I made a promise to myself that no matter how hard things got I would Always fight through it, and I think Ive come one hell of a long way! I dont know what the future holds for me or where I will be in the next year but until the day I do know I will try my hardest to achieve as many goals, that I have, that I can without making myself sick over worry! NOTHING IS GOING TO STAND IN MY WAY. So what am I thankful for....My family; who have done more than just be there for me, my friends;the new and old that have stuck with me through it all, my LIFE(even with all its crazy mess and something that I will NEVER ever take granted of again), the roof over my head, and my biggest supporter; MY MOM. Without her I have absolutely no idea where I would be, my Guardian Angel(Uncle Andy); whom I believe was there with me that night and every night after, I miss you more than words can describe and only wish that you could be here with us all still, You are who I want to be, and God for keeping me alive and guiding me through this mess every step of the way. I love you all and I truly am blessed to have yall in my life
Posted on: Thu, 13 Nov 2014 01:22:10 +0000