I know people believe that the church I grew up attending was amazing or the best thing ever. Well not for some i was one of the few that has to block out my child hood in order to move on in life. I been told to let go move forward and to forgive. Ive done all those things however because I choose to tell my story and print on paper makes me bad some how. Even the bible says the truth will make you free... John 8:32 And ye shall know the truth, and the truth shall make you free. He was just a man flesh and bones. When he died he didnt rise with all power like Jesus did. So dont be ready to fight because others believe different from how you. I dont remember the fun times like everyone else say we had. I remember playing morbid games like playing dead so I could watch my brother preach and my sister shout. I remember getting beat not by mother because i was told that my devil would have to bow because my attitude was bad never being ask is there something wrong. I remember staying at church until 1am having to go school the next day. I remember quoting scripture to explain why its freezing out side I had on a dress. Yeah I remember watching the kids double dutch sitting and crying because my mind was trier of living. I remember have a total of maybe 5 girls in my life to stick by me to really be my friend Valorie Christy Christine and Lisa Christina but they never knew the depth of my pain or why we left .. Moving to a city that may me feel even the more an out cast not having any real friends but two in high school I dont post this out of being angry but hurt because i read: Isaiah 61:3 To appoint unto them that mourn in Zion, to give unto them beauty for ashes, the oil of joy for mourning, the garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness; that they might be called trees of righteousness, the planting of the LORD, that he might be glorified. I needed the Lord to turn my ashes into something beautiful so he gave me the gift to write. It may not be what you want to read our even written perfectly but as long as he gives it I will write it down as my testimony to share with the world.
Posted on: Sun, 30 Mar 2014 18:10:39 +0000
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