I love you so much…and it hurts me that you don’t know it. I just wish that there was some way I could come up with the courage to tell you that. I PRAY to GOD EVERY night to take care of you and keep you safe. Every day I don’t see you is like a day I don’t want to live. I know that sound stupid to you, but it’s true. That is the main REASON I quit playing softball. Every day practice was just taking time away that I would usually see you, and I regret everyday I went to practice and didn’t see you. I know that sounds stupid but it’s the God honest truth. I am just so CONFUSED about my feelings for you. I love you to death and I would do anything in the world for you, but I just DON”T know how you feel about me. I know we play around like all the time but its little stuff like that that just makes my day sometimes. God only knows how much I care about you and pray that you will have a happy life. And I would have NEVER guessed that the first time I saw you we would have the sort of relationship we have now. But that is a friendship I will cherish in my heart forever. You have just been with me almost every day for almost the past year, and if I never saw you again, you just don’t know how that would affect me. That’s why it makes me so mad sometimes to hear you say you don’t give a crap about you job and you don’t care if you get fired, and neither do I. But I DO CARE if I will see you anymore. I just wish I could get that through you stubborn little head. I still remember the first time I met you. I didn’t even think twice about it, but I was just getting over someone that meant the WORLD to me and I PROMISED my self that I wouldn’t get close to anybody else like I did with that guy, but I don’t know what happened. I just couldn’t help but talk to you. And that is where it all started. And I blame myself because I am the one who fell for you. You just opened up life for me and made it fun. I mean I am only 13, my gosh I haven’t had much excitement in my life, but when you came along, that all changed. I mean you are what got me out of the bed in the morning and get through those long days of school just to see you for only that little while I did. At first, I got scared because I knew I was starting to like you, and I just didn’t want to get hurt, so I tried to pull a way from you for a while, but that didn’t work one bit. I just couldn’t stay away from you. And it’s you fault, but not really. You are the one always flirting with me all the darn time but I flirt back so I’m just as guilty. I’ve never understood how some one could love some one SO much that they would say they’d give there life for them, but now I know what they mean. It is a feeling for someone that is so intense you feel you would die for them. And that is something that scares me sometime. And it makes me want to cry to because I know that the only thing you see me as is another girl to score. You don’t know how bad it hurts me to hear you talk about your girlfriend or tell her you love her on the phone. But I don’t say a thing because I wouldn’t do ANYTHING to try to make you unhappy, because I would do anything in the world to just see you happy, even though it’s so painful sometimes. I’ve feel like I’ve been typing forever but there is still NO way you could ever understand how much I care about you in my heart. But my feelings for you will NEVER change and that is all I can say. I love you.
Posted on: Fri, 06 Sep 2013 08:09:35 +0000
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