I made my first trip this morning to the cemetery since leaving the cemetery after my Princes funeral at the funeral home on October 30th. When I last saw my Princes casket, the lid was closed but it was above ground. Actually being there today and seeing that it had been buried under the ground hurt me more than I could ever begin to explain. I had dressed up really pretty in red and black to go to his grave and had stopped by Pughs Florist and purchased a beautiful silk poinsettia spray to place behind my Princes temporary marker. It was truly the most beautiful arrangement that I saw at the cemetery. I dont know how long I stood and wept and wept and wept. I talked to The LORD while I was there, of course. The tears and deep hard crying did our LORD see and hear. Jesus was with me and I knew it. The memory of the photo of Stephen preaching with his hand raised to heaven kept appearing in my mind. Oh, how very much he loved The LORD Jesus Christ. I was shown the computer image today of our double grave marker that will be created now that I have approved of it and signed giving the cemetery permission to create it as depicted in the computer image. It is beautiful. Absolutely beautiful. It is thought by the cemetery representative that it will be permanently placed in January 2015. Our names and dates are on it except for my death date, of course. I had my Princes favorite expression Come, LORD Jesus placed on the permanent marker. It will be beautiful when it is created and permanently placed. My Princes Christian legacy lives on even on our grave marker. Stephens grave is next to his precious Mothers grave. Oh, how he loved that woman! She loved him so very much, too. They were able to reveal the secrets of their hearts to one another. His Mother had him absolutely spoiled rotten. She was taken to heaven by The LORD Jesus in 1995. I can remember several years ago seeing him break down and cry while hearing CHRISTmas Shoes while thinking on his precious Mother. Oh, how he missed her. My Darling told me that life was never the same after she departed for heaven. It is to be noted that he and and his Mother passed into heaven at the very same age of sixty-three years old. I had no idea that his Mothers grave would not have flowers in the vase on her grave marker. It hurt me to see that. Had I known, I would have purchased a bouquet of silk flowers to place there in honor of her memory. I had chest pains after leaving the cemetery as I had on the day that Jesus took my Prince and in the days that followed, but the chest pains did not last long today and have not reoccurred. It was so very hard, hard, hard for me to leave Stephens grave today. I told The LORD that I could just make me a bed there and rest on it without leaving it ever, but that is not real life. One day this body will rest beside his and that must suffice for now. I had to go to Princes grave for CHRISTmas for we have always been together for every CHRISTmas since falling in love. I know that it was just his body that was in the grave but it was the closest I could get to that which had belonged to him. I am thankful that The LORD went with me there. I will be so thankful when He heals this shattered heart of mine.
Posted on: Wed, 24 Dec 2014 23:08:15 +0000
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