I need to rethink my ambitions of producing rodeos, horse shows, horse trading, and my own desires. Between the money I lost the last two years putting on bull ridings / barrel racings, money wasted on building barns I dont use, horses bought that I dont sell, money lost this year producing team penning shows, and the money stolen from me this weekend trying to help someone else produce an event..... I could have put Elisia through 4 years at Harvard. And none....save a few....of the people care about any of that because producers / trainers are making piles of money right?!! All they really want is it to be good for them. But all of these events share one common denominator. ...none of them were about God. Once I publicly admitted that I was a Christian then God is holding me to a higher standard of be in the world but not of the world. But I continue to fail to recognize that and continue to try to keep going. Like the horse that believes he can get that saddle off if he just bucks harder. But what really happens if I get the saddle off? Only more stress and danger. God forgive me....I know I accepted the saddle then I tried to get it off. I now see that you cant be unlodged from the saddle and you are ready for me to become useful to the kingdom. Bridle me up and guide me where you need me. Im releasing my barn sour attitude that tells me to please people in my herd that really dont care. Im ready to ride away from the barn to work for the kingdom. Id rather be a pack horse than a dead free horse ate by wolves.
Posted on: Mon, 03 Feb 2014 13:06:37 +0000
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