I need to vent a little: I have severe osteoarthritis of my knees, the femur going to my knees, my back and now my right arm which is my dominant side! My bones are bone on bone. I hurt 24 hours a day, but trying to do even small tasks 4 months ago were difficult but kinda of doable! Since my GI Dr. Took me off all pain meds for arthritis 4 months ago I am in pain that I didnt know I could be in! I cant compare it to what Cancer patients have to go through and I wont! I also have L4-5 disc slipping in my back causing pinching of the nerve going into both hips! I am not saying I his for pity I dont want pity when so many are worse than I am! My problem is my inability to do simple household chores without being in a chair! I can barely walk anymore when I do its excruciating! I want to put my tree up and decorate and I cant do anything, I need to clean first and I cant do that either I am angry at my body for betraying me! I spent my life helping people, patients, families, my kids, my parents and my family! Now that I am home and should be able to enjoy my life and I actually have no control over it! Still waiting on surgery which now wont be till sometimes next year! I am angry and frustrated and just plain upset! God I know you have a reason and a plan and I am trying to understand, but tonight its hard! Ok vent over! I trust in My Lord and his plan I am just impatient! I never put my tree up later than today because it is my sisters birthday who passed away and it was Moms tradition to put it up today! So emotional besides being angry! Unless you live daily in pain you can not understand the frustration we feel when you fight through it but still cant get get it done! Hope you all have a great night! God Bless!
Posted on: Tue, 09 Dec 2014 02:54:11 +0000
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