I once had a concealed, fastened to my flesh and dying, heart. Back then, I never thought there was more to life than feeling as if people were the problem. Everyone and every situation seemed to be the issue except myself. I self-victimized like it were a 9-5 day job, and i lived my life using that job as a reference to get other jobs. Of course, the underlying truth to which was my demise was always a hindrance in the work/energy field called life. I opted to be the best i could be, always hearing that it is best to be yourself, so i tried that. I tried it using everything i saw others doing as an example though, never myself or how i felt ... Though my true heart did seep through the flesh when my mind was at peace and there was a smile on my moms face, but overall i was a walking talking empty vessel. But there is more to you than the things you believe your life was based upon. The mind is truly vast and filled with visions/ knowledge of the past future and present, you can decide to take a leap ahead, beyond, in and behind time, and if you dare, bring them all together. After many trialed times in the friendly acclaimed short/ young life span, i finally decided to pick myself up and venture, by myself, into my mind; my spirit leading the way. In my venture thus far i have listened to my spirit say, Comfort, mm love, hmm A fear you must overcome, let go of this person, hmm dont trust that idea, create your own, admit the truth, mm this isnt who you are, mm you cannot be defined by this but use it for the positive that it brings, Ohhmmmm jozet, this can be enhanced, Ohhmmm jozet you need to ask for the energy and then you shall receive it, ooohhmm jozet, do not turn a blind eye, aumm NO EXCUSES JOZET.. AUMMMM JOZET IT IS VERY POSSIBLE, aumm STOP SAYING YOU DONT THINK YOU CAN, AUMM JOZET, NOTHING IS BEYOND YOUR WILL POWER. Literally and practically this is what i have been doing, i am allowing my spirit / letting my instincts guide me on the path i created in my mind, physically and spiritually. I stopped thinking and started REALIZING. I stopped doubting and started BELIEVING. I started asking and RECEIVING. I started being and ACHIEVING. Of course, Still a working progress, but so far the satisfaction i have gained isnt too constraining or too untamed like i thought it might be, instead the satisfaction i feel is comfort and freedom, less guilt and less pity, more faith and more pride in who i am.. Which i can see by looking at my reactions or over-standing of certain things, and for others; for example, im not as easily annoyed, i take correction better, i spend more time doing the things i love, i dont complain as much as i used to, i dont lie for petty things anymore, and just in general i am a lot more humble. So far so good. I do hope this keeps someones shoulders straight and head forward without their chin and nose held up against themselves or anyone else for that matter. We fall short only to rise taller !
Posted on: Sun, 09 Mar 2014 16:14:07 +0000
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